Tragedy girl

V

**Jessicas P.O.V**

I woke up the next day to the usual beeping of the machines and the scent of the African daisies. A doctor comes in. His names Rob. Hes got thinning grey hair and kind blue eyes.
"Morning sweetheart." he said, opening the curtains.

He helps out of my bed and into a wheel chair. I broke my right leg and fractured my left wrist so i couldnt use crutches-plus i get dizzy if i walk or stand for too long. I wheel myself into the waiting room where i find Lucas, Ryley and the nice nurse, Sarah. Lucas looks up from his phone and runs over to me. Hes so happy it makes my heart melt!
"Morning babe! you wanna a coffee i can go-"
"Im fine at the moment."
He goes and sits back down. Sarah opens a notebook and starts writing stuff down.
"What are you doing?" i ask her, leaning over to see what she's writing.
"Oh we are trying to orginise your mothers....." she stopped mid sentence and give a sorry look to Lucas and Ryley.
"My mothers what!" i demand. They all look at eachother hesitantly. Worst case senarios play through my head. I wheel away from them and go to the room i knew my mothers was. Of course i didnt actually know what room my mothers was, but i wheeled down the halls. Somehow i just knew where to go.

I slowed to a stop outside an empty room. It had some wilted flower petals on the ground. The room smelt like her. But it was empty. Behind me Lucas and Ryley came running.
"When were you going to tell me?" i asked unable to say anything else. They both started talking at the same time but stopped when they realized i wasnt listening. I had wheeled myself to the bed and sat on it.
"How long ago?" i asked feeling my eyes swell up with tears.
"Three days." Lucas said quietly. The both came and say down next to me. Ryley dramatically wiped a tear away.

No words could explain the amount of pain knowing my mum was dead brought me. I tried not to think about it too much because it just brought another river of tears. The day went by so slowly. I sulked around the hospital and didnt talk to anyone until dinner; when i was ready to discuss the funeral.

"What's today?" I said.
"Tuesday." Sarah replied.
"And you said the funeral will be on Friday?"
"Yes"
"I should start writing a speech. have you and the others orginised everything else?"
"Yes. Im so sorry. No one should have to deal with what you are going through."
"Its okay. Dont be sorry. You didnt do anything wrong." i then wheeled back to my hospital room for my last night there.

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The last few nights Lucas and Ryley have been sleeping at the hospital, I'm not sure where but they have been. I turned over in my bed and looked at the clock. 11:13. I was just about to close my eyes again when i heard a quiet knock on my door. Lucas.

He tip toes over to my bed and kneeled down beside it. I leant in to kiss him but he stopped me.
"Only if i get to sleep here im sick of those chairs in the waiting room." He whispered. I laughed quietly and pulled back my covers for him. He placed a gentle kiss on my lips and the last thing i remember was his arm round my shoulder and our fingers intwined.

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The next morning i found i was alone in my bed. I have to admit i was a little dissspointed that i just imagined it all. But then...
"You move alot in your sleep." Lucas stood at the doorway holding two cups of hot coffee.
"Ugh thanks i need the caffeine." I said as he handed me the mug.
"Do I really? move alot in my sleep that is?" i asked.
"Hell yeah! You woke me up twice because you kicked me!" i laughed nervously.
"You probably deserved it" i replied. Lucas rolled his eyes and sat on the end if my bed. We drank our coffee together in silence then headed out for some real hospital cafe breakfast.

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The day of the funeral arived and i was NOT ready for it. I huddled into a crowed church with Ryley holding my hand. We stood at the front as my mum brothers carried her white casket in. Half the people were already crying.

It was hard to listen to all of the speeches without crying but i knew Ryleys speech would break me. She spoke with a wobbling voice; i could tell she was trying so hard to hold the sobs in. When it was my turn i asked for Ryley to stand with me.

"Now." I Said. "Im not going to speak for too long as im assuming no one wants to sit here and listen to me cry. So." I took a shaky breath and began. "Mum. sometimes it felt like you were the 17 year old! i remember my 16th birthday. Me and my friends were drinking and you came home from work, grabbed a drink and joined in with all the crazy stuff my friends were doing. Within an hour you were as drunk as the rest of us! Lucas and my then boyfriend Hayden got into a fight and you were the one yelling 'FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT' you crazy women." I paused and wiped a tear from my cheek.
"When Hayden broke up with me a month after that i was so annoyed and you went out into the garage and got out the punching bag dad left behind and drew an ugly face on it and wrote 'this is Hayden' on it. We both started punching it together.

"You were the most amazing, crazy, fun, loving and happy women i have ever known. No matter what shit i was going through you were always there to help me get through it. I love you so much mum. I always will." And that broke me.

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR READING CHAPTER 5!! I HOPE YOU ALL ARE ENJOYINH MY STORY SO FAR. NOW THAT EASTER WEEKEND IS COMING TO AN END I WONT BE UPDATING AS OFTEN BUT I WILL TRY TO UPDATE EVERY THURSDAY AND SUNDAY SOOO HANG IN THERE FOR CHAPTER 6!!!
~LEXIE XOX