Tragedy girl

XII

**Jessicas POV**

As briskly as i can, i walk into school trying desperately to find Macy. She was replying to my frantic texts and i couldn't find her anywhere. Cass and Ryley were standing by Ryleys locker talking. I start walking up to them. Wait. Who am i kidding! i cant tell them!! I turn away before they notice me and bump into someone.
"Oh my god im so sorry, let me help you" it was a girl with long, curly, bright blue hair and grey eyes. She was wearing a flowy white dress and brown boots. Her bag was covered in doodles and drawings; mostly of flowers.
"No, no its fine." she says with a smile.
"Do you a girl called Macy and if you do can you tell me where she is?" i ask.
"Uh yeah she's in my French class but i haven't seen her." the girl replys. I curse under my breath but put on a fake smile.
"Oh ok thanks. Im Jess by the way."
"Im Eleanor!" the girl exclaims holding out her hand. I shake it hurriedly and go hunting for Macy again.

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I cant believe Luke kissed me! it was only short but the worst thing about it was that i enjoyed it. Goddamnit. I have Lucas. I have Lucas.

The bell rings, signaling the beginning of first period. I have English.....with Luke.....uhhh. I walk in and hes sitting nervously at his desk. Tapping his pen against the desk annoyingly. When he sees me he smiles quickly before looking away. I take my desk behind him as the teacher walks in.
"We are doing an assignment." Miss Sterling announces.
"I will put you in pairs ad you will write a short story together. The assignment will be due in two weeks so i suggest you start planning. You story can be about anything, the only rule is it must be fantasy."
The whole class groans. Even though we are all good writers, no one likes assignments. The teacher lists the names and i realise shes going in alphabetical order. Damnit. Mine and Lukes names are together.
"Sarah Ray and Luke Reed." phew.
"Oh Sarah isn't here and i want you all to start planning today with a partner. Soo Luke will be with Jessica Reynolds." Shit. whyy!

I shuffle to a desk next to Luke reluctantly. We discuss idea awkwardly. Fantasy is my strength so i have lots if ideas. I just dont feel confident sharing them. I would much rather do this assignment on my own. Most if the time, we both sat there awkwardly in silence. Luke tapping his pen on his desk.
The bell signals the end of the period thank god. As i get up and gather my things, Luke comes over to me.
"Should we meet in the library after school." I nod and try to act natural.

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The rest of the day dragged on and on. I cant stop thinking about the kiss. I even liked it. Does this mean i cheated on Lucas?? No it doesn't count, surely. Do I like Luke? I dont even know.
Should I break up with Lucas? we have been drifting further away. We just aren't as close as we were.

I have to make a decision.

I walk into the library holding my English book and my phone. I quickly text my dad to tell him i will be home later and go to sit next to Luke. His greeny blue eyes stare intently down at me and i know he wants to talk about what happened.
"How do you feel about me?" i sigh, finally getting that question out. Luke smiles.
"I think this morning answered your question." He replys. I nod knowingly and bring out a pen and open my book.
"Lucas..." i mutter, just loud enough for Luke to hear.
"I know i feel bad because you have a boyfriend. But I don't regret it. I was dying to kiss you and I finally did." I pinch my temples and close my eyes. I cant do this right now. Not with how im feeling.
"Luke im so sorry but i have something to do. Will you drive me home?" i ask. He nods and silently we make our way home.

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I left a bunch of voice messages and texts to Lucas. I have no idea what the time is in New Zealand. Part of me wants to just send him a text telling him everything, but i know i have to do this properly. Well as properly as you can when you're on the other side of the world.

He finally called at 10:30 at night. I have no idea what time it is there.
"Hey whats up?" he says. I sigh.
"I need to tell you something." I start
"Me too umm"
"Im breaking up with you...." i manage to whisper.
Silence was the only thing i heard.
"Im sorry" i say. Lucas finally finally finds his voice again.
"Its-uh it's ok. Umm it was gonna happen anyway." his voice was wavering and i knew he was close to tears. I feel so freaking bad.
"Im so so sorry." i apoligise again.
"Good bye Jess." and he hangs up. I sit on my bed and feel a tear roll down my cheek. But at the same time i feel so relieved.

Ryley knocks on my door quietly.
"I heard all of that. Are you ok?" she asks. I nod and invite her in for a hug. I love Ryley so much.

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I woke up the next morning to my phone going crazy with notifications. All from Luke. Texts saying things like:
I was on Lucas instagram have you seen what he posted?
R u awake??
Hurry hurry
Jessssssss
Oh my god wake up

I open up instagram and search Lucas's page. Sure enough his most recent most was a cute picture of us holding hands laughing. I think Laura took the photo. The caption said: all good things must come to an end.

The comments were all so supportive and nice. At least he has good friends to help him. I quickly write a comment saying: Sorry, it had to be done x

I quickly told Luke that we broke up and stuff. Obviously i didnt tell him the real reason why. I like Luke. But I don't want a boyfriend at the moment. Not for a while.

HEYYYY!!! THANK YOU FOR READING I HOPE YOU LIKED IT. I WILL BE UPDATING MORE OFTEN SINCE ITS SCHOOL HOLIDAYS SO HANG IN THERE FOR CHAPTER 13!!!
-LEXIE XOX