If You're Not The One - ZeRoyalMexican

Selfless Ohm

Max's POV

I managed to keep it together after Ohm and I got a pretty long ass speech from Diction. Both of us cleared everything up, saying there was no sex, no kiss between us just that we shared a bed. He didn't believe us at first but after much convincing, he was still asking us what happened. It was a long night but I'm glad that everything was out in the open.

It was just myself and Ohm once again but this time being in his car. I don't know if I should say anything or not, maybe he's had enough for the night.

A further ten minutes go by and none of us has said a word. I guess I better say something even if it's nothing important.

"Hey did..." I start but get interrupted.

"Nick really..."

We bother tried to say something at the same time. If that isn't awkward enough then I don't know what it.

"Uh, you go..." I look over at him.

He looks super embarrassed but he keeps his eyes on the road.

"I was just going to say that Nick really laid it into us..."

"That's Nick for you... Listen man. We're good right? I don't want us to just fall apart because of Ze."

He frowns. "What kind of friend would I be if I let my feelings over rule our friendship. I'm not going to lie to you, it did hurt me when I saw you two this morning. But I knew it would happen... you know, I knew you two would reconcile..."

I couldn't bare to look at him anymore. He just looks defeated.

I look out the window while he continued to talk.

"Maybe if I had told you when I first realised my feelings instead of keeping it to myself, who knows what might of happened..."

Would I of even kissed Ze that night at Adams if I knew about Ohm earlier? He said he's liked me since before Chilled was even in the hospital.

"When did you know? Was it at Sark's party? You seemed fine with me then."

"It was before. Way before that, like way, way before that." he answers.

My brows raise. All this time he has been keeping everything to himself.

"No one was out yet. You were straight, even Adam and Chilled weren't out. I was scared that people wouldn't talk to me. I just decided to keep it to myself." he adds again.

How could I have been so blind about this?

"When Adam and I saw you and Ze kissing, I was sort of happy and upset. You were kissing a guy and I waited for so long for that to happen but it wasn't me who got to do that for you... I was a little jealous. When you told me what happened with Ze, I wanted to tell you how I felt but you pretty much shut the idea of me and you down straight away."

Now I feel really bad...

"Listen Ohm, I can't tell you how bad I feel about all this. I feel so bad..."

"Don't be. I was the one who chickened out and let someone else swoop in. I wasted my chance and I don't think I'll be getting another one. I just have to live with that."  he replies.

I couldn't reply to him. What could I say to even fix this? Nothing... He's being really adult with his replies to me. I sort of figured him to be more upset and more begging but he's being so calm about it all. Ze practically begged me to give him a chance and here is Ohm being completely selfless.

"Did you say you wanted to stop somewhere and get tea for you and Ze? There's a really good chinese place up a little further. It's pretty amazing place, I'm constantly ordering from them." he adds.

"Yeah that'd be good man. Thanks."

Once we got to the chinese place, we both went in and ordered our food. He ended up buying something for himself as well. The owners must of loved him since they offered to give us free food as well but I'm not complaining. It was pretty cool what they did.

We had to wait for our food to cook so we choose some seats near the entrance and make a little small talk. Nothing about Ze or myself, just our channels and other things. I kind of felt like I had to stop myself from bringing up this whole ordeal we have with eachother. I just think we're not done talking about it. Maybe I should try and start to fix it...

"Hey can I just say something?"

He turns his head and gives me a confused look. "Uh, yeah?"

"You're a great guy, I always have a great time whenever we're together and I like how close we got over the past month. I'm really flattered that you like me and all... It was a shock to me but I'm glad you told me man. It's not everyday that a friendship stays after someone spills the beans..."

He looks at me with a shy smile.

"I'm not going to toss away our friendship just because you have a crush on me but it's like you said... Ze got to me first... If you had told me sooner then I guess we might of been together? I like you man, you're great but I just fell for Ze."

He nods his head and bites down on his lip. "He is a pretty great guy too so I understand. I'm fine with being friends though."

He scoffs but in a sort of happy way and bumps shoulders with me.

"You give me your word?" I chuckle.

He squints his eyes at me when he realises that I'm copying his own words against him from the hospital.

"I meant it then and I mean it now. Anytime you need me, I'm there. Give you my word." he smiles.

"Order fifty six and fifty seven?!" The owner calls out suddenly.

Both our heads turn to the guy as he smiles holding our bags.

"Guess I better get you back to Ze now." he says as he stands up.

"Yeah..." I mutter back.

I still feel horrible about all this.

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Ohm had dropped me off at Ze's about ten minutes ago but I've been standing outside his door during that whole time. I wanted to go in but I kept thinking about Ohm. He's hurting and I want to be there for him. It's my fault he's like this. I have the urge to leave and go back to him just to make sure he's okay...

The front porch light suddenly beams, scaring me in the process. I look up to it and take a step back. I know I promised to stay with Ze tonight but I'm a little worried about Ohm.

The door clicks and swings open in front of me as I stood there dumbfounded. Ze leans on the door frame with a massive grin.

"You don't have to wait for me to open the door. Walk in next time silly."

He prances out the door and pulls me into a swift kiss. I don't kiss him back though which creates an awkward moment for us. He steps away from me and starts to look worried.

"Are you okay? You look a little upset..." he asks as he cups my cheek.

I stare into his eyes as he asks me the question. He squints his eyes as I continued to stare at him.

"Max? You good?" he asks again.

I shake my head and blink quickly a few times. "I'm fine. Let's go in..."

He takes the bag of food from my hands and slips his hand into mine, leading me into his house. Tonight is going to be a long night.

I need to shake this feeling out of my body...