If You're Not The One - ZeRoyalMexican

Found Myself Here

Max's POV - Two days later.

"Thanks for coming to see me Max. It's sort of been a shit week but thanks for dropping off this little care package." Chilled smiles at me as he holds onto the door.

"He's in there isn't he. Why you haven't invited me in yet right?" I guess.

He shakes his head but opens his door wide enough for me to come through.

"I was just about to actually... but he's not here Max, don't worry. I haven't spoken to him for a couple of days."

I was intrigued once he said they hadn't spoken for a couple of days because normally they speak every day.

He closes the door behind him once I'm through the door. We walk out to his lounge room where his TV was currently turned onto a movie, sitting down he waits for me to say something.

"I don't know if you know or anything but after your stream..." I stop myself as Chilled frowns down at his feet.

"You saw that too?"

I nod my head. "After you left, people were freaking out so I tried calming them all down and just telling them to give you some space so hopefully they listen. I asked to spread the word too so no one swarms you, on Twitter especially."

His head lifts up and gives me a thankful look. "Thanks man. I appreciate it."

"I know I've hardly been around to see how you're doing since you left the hospital but I just want you to know that if you need someone to talk to or anything, just give me call and I'll come around."

Chilled nods his head as he listened to me. I feel mad at myself because I'm probably the worst friend he has right now and I just wish I would of been here for him more then anyone.

"I was sort of angry with you to be honest Max... You're lucky you didn't come see me sooner actually. When Ze told me about you and Ohm? I-I was so disappointed in you and I immediately took Ze's side. I told him to break up with you and he did... I feel like it was mostly my fault he actually went through with it. I'm sorry man..." he sighs softly.

I felt a ping in my chest as Chilled blamed himself for Ze's actions. It might of been Chilled's idea but Ze still went through with it.

"Don't blame yourself, we just weren't meant to be. I forgive you though. We've all said things we regret so don't worry about it. It's just part of growing up."

"I'm trying to do that with Adam. He just doesn't seem to give up ever..."

"He loves you Chilled. He thinks you're the one. If I was him, I wouldn't give up either." I cut him off.

Chilled's eye twitches as he avoids my direction. He just needs to stop whatever game he is playing and just go back to him.

"Do you think Ze's the one?" he plainly asks.

I press my lips together and hold my breath for a few seconds. "I thought he was but things don't work out sometimes but you Chilled... You have a chance to fix things up. Adam isn't going anywhere until he know's for sure he has you back."

I wanted to say he was the one. I thought that about him once we were open about each other. Things just change, people change.

Chilled finally looks up to me with a glimmer of sadness in his eyes. "If I just kept my mouth shut then you and Ze would have worked things out and... I dunno, things would of just been better. I wasn't happy so no one could be happy. Max, I'm sorry for all this..."

"No, Chilled. Don't you dare blame yourself okay? It wasn't your fault. It was mine. I was the one who made it worse by bringing Ohm into the picture. I just got a little crush and I didn't realise until it was too late..." The way Chilled looked at me made me want to hug him. He's always going to blame himself. "You said you haven't spoken to him in a couple of days, is everything okay?" I try changing it back on him.

He hunches his back and exhales.

"He let Adam in my house when I told him not to. I felt betrayed that after all we went through, he just let him in. I thought he was my best friend. He's suppose to be on my side."

I nod my head as he continued to tell me what happened. It sounds like Ze just wanted to help end the nonsense that they have going on. Hearing that Adam said he was walking out and never coming back scared me a little. He wouldn't just say that especially to Chilled but apprantely he did. He never even mentioned anything to me about this as well.

"I know you don't want to hear this but it honestly just sounds like he was trying to help you two but obviously it backfired on him. Yeah he betrayed you but he's your best friend who is trying to help you get some happiness back in your life. So just don't ignore him for too long. He's probably worried right now because you haven't spoken to him." I add.

He looks at me up and down a few times and grunts in frustration because he know's I'm right.

"And if for some reason you and Adam run into eachother again... Be nice. Just because he said he wasn't coming back doesn't mean it's true, he still loves you regardless." I continue.

"Ze still loves you..." he replies back.

"I know he does. I love him too."

Chilled screws his face up and shakes his head. "Why the hell aren't you's together then?"

I take a couple breaths in and out and look up to the ceiling above me.

"Ohm." I say plainly.

He gives off a confused look and tries to figure out what I really meant by that.

"Wait... You're not... Are y-you? You're with Ohm?!"

"What? no, god no. I'm just saying that's the reason we're not together. Ze would always feel like I'm thinking about Ohm because I said I wondered what it'd like if I dated him instead. That's not how I want him to think so moving on is what has to happen with us now. I don't know, I just want him to be happy and he's not going to be happy with me while he's thinking that. That's all I know."

"This is so depressing..." he groans.

Ze's POV - Eight hours later.

"I shouldn't be here..." I say to myself.

I shuffle my feet around and try psych myself up. Taking deep breaths in and out. My whole body fidgeting as I kept shuffling my feet. I close my eyes and quickly knock on the door.

"I can't do this." I immediately say.

I turn my back and take a step forward but stop again.

"Get a grip!" I spit at myself.

The front light suddenly shines brightly which causes me to turn around. The door knob turns. I fold my arms and shuffle my feet again as I'm completely nervous right now. The door gets pulled open and Max is revealed.

"Wha..." he begins to say.

"I don't know what I'm doing here..." I quickly reply. "I just found myself standing here."

"You shouldn't be here Ze."