Take Me Back To The Start (Tony Perry, Mike Fuentes, other people?)

How To Hide Your Feelings

Tony kind of skulked away from everything going on with Brian. He was only out for 3 minutes but Tony didn't want to be anywhere near when he woke up. Hell, I don't want to be here when he wakes up. 

"Some ex husband you've got there," Brian said in a hushed tone. You could hear the obvious sarcasm but I was too busy trying to find out where Tony went to give a shit. 

"Yeah, he's always been pretty great," I replied blankly. I spotted Mike from across the way hanging out with the Sleeping With Sirens boys. 

"This isn't going to work, is it.," he spoke softly. It wasn't a question, though it was phrased like one. "You clearly have some feelings left for that bloke and you're not the Charlie that I knew in Ireland. We've become too different." His voice was heavy, as if he was regretting the words coming out of his mouth.

I leaned over and pecked him on the cheek and gave him a sympathetic smile. "I'm sorry," I whispered before walking towards Mike. I started breaking into a run and managed to keep quiet until I laughed as I jumped onto his back. I noticed everyone else was there, including Tony, but I could care less. I haven't seen my best friend in months. 

"WHISKEY HANDZZZZ," I screamed bringing out the 's' but making it sound lame by using a 'z'. 

"Good grief, Charlie Brown," he replied in a nerdy voice that made everyone around laugh. 

Everyone apart from a small redhead cuddled up next to Tony giving me the biggest death glare I've ever seen. "Get a room," she mumbled under her breath. 

I shot her an evil look and glanced at Tony, he seemed sad. Minutes ago he was alright but now he looked like the life was being drained from him. He looked tired, they all did.

"What's going on guys," I asked looking at each of my boys, skipping over Sarah. 

"Jaime is excited because Jessica is coming on the tour with us, Vic is busy writing new material, Tony and Sarah are going to get married when we hit Vegas and I'm just being Mike." He looked down when mentioning Tony and I'm pretty sure you could see me cringe at the mention of a wedding. 

"That reminds me, Tony put you on the guest list, so here's your invitation. Whore," she muttered the last bit just loud enough for me to hear. 

"Um. Thanks," I said in a questioning voice. I was a little unsure about going to my ex husband's wedding, it just seems weird. "When does Jess get in?" 

"Tonight," Jaime smiled. He was bouncing up and down and giggling at the mention of her name. Talk about a match made in Heaven.

"Great, we should go for drinks," I said as I beamed a smile at him. Jess and I had been best friends in high school and continued throughout various points. 

"She'd love that. You know after the tour you should stay in contact with her, you're really the only person she has besides me. You know how things can get," he said letting his eyes drop to his shoes. 

"I know, Jaime. I'm going to get better, better for me and better for my friends," I said quietly. 

"What friends," Sarah questioned under her breath. She was really touching my last nerve. 

"I'm sorry," I challenged her. I was not letting some bitch of Tony's talk to me like that. 

She smirked, "You've pushed all of your friends away. You don't talk to Jaime's girlfriend, you cheated on Tony and you slept with Mike and told him you loved him when you didn't." 

"She hasn't pushed me away," Jaime spoke up. "And she sure as Hell hasn't pushed Jess away, they have a friendship that doesn't need to be up to date. It's more of a here and now deal." 

"Yeah, and you didn't mention me. Even if you did, she hasn't pushed me away. I still love her like my little sister," Vic said putting an arm around my shoulder. 

Mike wrapped his arm around my waist, "She hasn't pushed me away either, I just needed to figure out how we were meant to be. And I think it's time I went back to treating her like my little sister and not just another girl." 

"Okay, so you've got the idiots wrapped around your finger, it's not like you have anyone else," Sarah scoffed. 

I walked up and got right in her face, "To be quite honest, I don't need anyone else. So how about you fuck off because there's a lot of tension and you're the cause of it." 

"TONY!," she shrieked. "YOU CAN'T JUST LET HER TALK TO ME LIKE THAT," she continued to wail. 

Tony let out a sigh, "Come on, let's just leave." 

Tony led her away but not without a fight. She was being a child and I truly felt bad for Tony, he didn't want to be with her. You could tell by how he looked at her and how he talked to her. He never treated me that way. I don't get why he's marrying her, they aren't right together. 

"He's marrying her because she preggo with his kid," Mike said softly. 

"Did I say that out loud," I said as I felt my cheeks burn. 

"Yeah, you did. But we agree," Jaime said keeping his head down. "They aren't right but Tony can't leave the girl that is carrying his child. We know that he's not that guy." 

"That's why they're getting married in Vegas," I questioned, although it came out as a statement. 

"She wants to Mrs. Perry before she has the kid," Vic said roughly.

"And before she gets fat," Mike added which made all of us give a sad laugh.

We all got quiet thinking about it. Tony wasn't ready to marry another whore, he deserves someone who will love him for life. I could have given him that, but I had to screw it up. Just like always I find something wrong and do something to end it or make it worse. I still can't get over how fucked up I was to sleep with Mike whilst I was married to Tony. It just doesn't seem like me. I could feel my cheeks getting sticky from the tears that had silently started to fall. 

"Hey hey, what's wrong, Charlie Brown," Mike asked quietly in my ear. 

"I d-don't want T-tony to marry h-her! He d-deserves b-better than her," I wailed into Mike's shirt. 

"I know, babe. But there's nothing we can do about it now," he said softly. 

The guys all joined in our hug, even Jesse and Justin from Sleeping joined in. 

"Well, if you're going to change his mind you better work fast. We reach Vegas in 2 days. We'll get there early morning and it's a day off so get working," Jesse stated to all of us. 

He said he had to go check on Ash but he gave me a wink before leaving. Jesse was my favorite in that band. He was always so kind and full of great ideas. 

I was going to win Tony back and I think I knew how.