The Hottie That's Shy (COMPLETED)

I Cant Believe He Did This

Jayden's POV:

When all of us woke up the next day, we descussed what happened last night and we were laughing at each other because we heard what was going on in their rooms. These people make me actually wanna live, they make me feel loved, besides the twins and mom of course. Im just happy that their here for me even if my dad isnt.

We all went home, i took Bell home and gave her a kiss goodbye before she got out the car. Im so in love, i don't know how i could live without her, she's my life. I pray every night for her to still love me, and so far, it's working.

I pulled into my yard and i could see that my dad was here. Ugh, i mopped out of the car and went inside. "Where the hell is he?!" i heard my dad screaming at my mom. "John i already told you that he was at a sleepover, calm down." my mom's voice sounded like she was crying. I walked into the kitchen, "im here, why are you guys yelling?" i asked. He turned towards me with fury eyes. "You!" he walked over towards me, he grabbed me by my shirt, "where the fuck have you been Jayden." he spit in my face. "I was at Alec's house." i said through gritted teeth, he must think im scared of him again, im ready.

"Did you ask me if you could go?" "no b-" "well dammit you should've stayed your ass home until i came home. You've been growing some balls huh? Since you got that little whore, you've been getting into fights. Now your a man huh?" he growled. My mom tried to free me from his hold, he slapped her. Oh hell no. I pushed him off of me and i started punching him, harder and harder, i couldn't stop, at this moment i didnt want to. "Jayden stop!" my mom cried out. I kept punching him, she grabbed me and i got off of him, "dont you dare touch my fucking mother! Ever you got that!" i screamed at him as he was wiping blood from his nose. "Who do you think your talking to?!" he growled back. "You! Im tired of you treating me like im weak, im not! I might be shy and not in sports but im a human dammit and im 18 years old and i deserve to be treated that way! Im so tired of you! Just except me for who i am! Why cant you love me for me dad? Why! Do you hate me that much?!" i was crying now. "Go to your room! How dare you talk to me in that manner with that kind of language. Your a mistake, your mother might love you but i dont! I never will! And your little "relationship" with that little black whore is over. Get out of here Jayden Armond Waterson! Now!" he screamed at me.

I gave him one more death glare and i looked at my mom. "Mom, he cant tell me what to do. I wont break up with Bella, i love her." i cried to her. "Jayden, please. Just go." she looked at me, i cant believe she said this. "Mom please, t-" "get out!" my dad yelled. I put my head down and walked up stairs. I cant believe he did this, and she let him. I slamped my room door and rushed to my bathroom. I got out the blade and with no remorse i started cutting. Both arms this time, i made sure that the cuts were long and super deep, i could see the white meat. "Ahhhhhhh!!!!!!!" i screamed. I started kicked everything, i punched my mirror and dropped to the ground, covered in blood. "I hate my fucking life!!!! They cant tell me who to date! I love her. I love her, i love her. God please." i kept saying to myself, rocking back and forth.

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I woke up, my eyes were burning. I tried to get up but i couldnt, my legs were a sleep and my arms, God my arms, they were stained with blood and huge red slits, everywhere like i got molded by a lion. And then it hit me, i couldn't date Bell anymore. I cried, clenching my fist together, making the pain even worse. I think i blanked out because i woke up again. I decided to try my best to get up, the pain was un bearable. I finally was able to get up and i slowly made my way out of the bathroom and into my room to find something to wear.

Im not going to school today, i cant let the guys see me like this, and Bell.... I cant tell her to her face, i didnt have the courage. I walked into the bathroom with my all black joggers and a muscle shirt. I found my phone on thr counter, cover in blood, i cleaned it up and texted Kyle and told him everything that happend last night to me cutting, i told him to tell the others and to tell Bell that i will always love her and im sorry. Just reading what i told him i wanted to cut again, tp commit suicide. I put my phone back on the counter and got into the shower, i ran the water and it stung my cuts, making me hiss. I dont think this will work.