Our Song (BTS Jungkook X Rapmonster fanfic)

Fallen Stars

First of all, I would like to thank SwaeggierThanSuga for their help on where the heck this fanfic is going. Please check out her stories as they are 111% better than mine :p In fact, if you haven't already:
FUCK MY FANFIC AND GO FOLLOW HER AND READ HER STORIES BC SHE IS AMAZING K? K.
*coughs* o sry about that 😪 anyways...
*Angst warning so yea.*
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     Three days had past since the incident at the movies. They had gone home immediately afterwards and Jungkook didn't get a second of sleep that night. Sure, the men who had almost scared him within an inch of his life had some part of his lack of rest, but it wasn't just that. He was confused, emotionally and physically. Part of him was fearing the worst, that he would never regain his voice, be forced out of BTS, and ultimately ripped away from everything he held dear because of it. That's where his physical turmoil mixed with his emotional problems because of one person. Kim Namjoon. Ever since the movie theater catastrophe, the younger had been thinking over and over again about their 'relationship'. Jungkook knew that the older whole heartedly meant it when he promised to do everything is his power to get his voice back.  But...what if he really DID get his voice back? What would happen to 'them'? Would everything go back to they way it was before the accident? Was everything  the Leader had done for the Maknae out of pity and nothing more? Jungkook tossed and turned in bed eventually looking below him where Namjoon laid peacefully asleep.
The younger frowned in thought "What am I to you?" before clutching his pillow and letting the darkness of sleep calm his mind.

That morning their schedule had gone back to a some-what normal pace. Since the youngest still wasn't quite ready for a full on dance rehearsal , there were photoshoots scheduled first thing in the morning. Despite the lack of sleep, the Maknae dragged himself (with the help of Jimin and V) out of bed and into the car for the shoot. They usually started with the normal Solo shots where each member got their own personal cameos to show off their qualities as individuals. Jungkook didn't really enjoy those much due to a number of insecurities that his fellow members often tried to erase from his mind saying that he was 'perfect'.
As Taehyung had once said "Your skin is as clear as a porcelain dolls', your hair is as smooth as silk, and your body is better than a models!"
At the time Jungkook had just brushed of the compliments with a laugh thinking nothing of it. He knew he was definitely better off than the vast majority of people on Earth. Who would have thought, that even before the age of 20, he would be a world famous K-pop Idol! His parents would always remind him of how proud they were of their son, and A.R.M.Ys would scream his name on stage and basically worship the ground he walked on. He was one of the 'Lucky' people. But....if that was true, then why did his heart heart when he looked at couples' walk by looking like the happiest people in the world? Upon signing a contract with Bighit (along with virtually every other music company) he had agreed to 'No Relationship Status of any Kind with any Other Party for Remainder of Time as an Idol'. It was something he agreed to and needed to be done, Jungkook knew that. And yet his heart would ache ever so slightly at the sight of people holding hands or even kissing in public. Something in his mind would whisper in envy "I wish I could do that with someone I loved."
"Hellooo? Kookie? Hey it's time for your shoot. Earth to Jungkook~" Jimin waved his hand in front of the dazed younger.
        Jungkook shook his head in shock before plastering a nervous smile on his face "Oh...oh yeah, thanks hyung." he wrote before walking almost zombie like towards the photographers. Jimin looked at him with concern "What's wrong with him?" but he just shrugged it off and went to go bother Yoongi.
       As a series of flashes went off before the Jungkook posed in several quote on quote 'seductive' poses upon the photographers request. Out of the corner of his eye, he saw Namjoon put on the fancy coat he had to wear for the shoot before looking at him with a sly smile and a wink. The younger hoped that the blush that had grown wasn't visible on camera, and that the camera man couldn't hear his heart beat fast and loud in his chest. All it took was one simple gesture from him and the younger get like this. Part of him wanted to take that as a sign, a sign that the older may actually be interested in him. Yes, that is something that a hormonal teenager would say about something as small as a wink, but it had to mean something, right?
      The flashing stopped with the cameraman's thumbs up "Your done, feel free to change into your normal clothes in the changing room."
     Jungkook grabbed his notebook which he had placed off to the side and flipped to the tabbed page "Thank you" (he had written pre-set common phrases like this in advance) after bowing the the man. He walked to the large changing room with a long frustrated sigh then began to take off his shirt and place it in his designated locker as he heard a voice out of nowhere say:
       "I know that sigh Kookie, the last time you sighed like that you told me you were gay."
     The Maknae practically jumped as he spun around, throwing his shirt in the direction of the voice. It landed right on the intruders face before slowly sliding down and landing on the floor. It revealed a very confused Taehyung still flustered about the shirt that was just thrown in his face. Jungkook quickly wrote in his notebook, still jumpy from the sudden intrusion "Jesus, hyung! You scared the fuck out of me, where did you even come from?!"
V picked up the shirt and rolled his eyes "I came from hell to inform you that you'll be joining them very soon," he said as he tossed it back to younger "Just kidding, I wrapped up my shoot just before you, but that's not the point. I've known you for too long Jungkook~ah and I know your upset, cmon, what's on your mind?"
It was weird, but the Alien-of-a-Best-Friend always knew when he needed help. Taehyung did have weird quirks and moments from time to time, but he was a genuinely good friend when you needed him. When someone needed to get something off their chest, it was like he changed into a totally different person. Jungkook took a few moments before writing "It's about Namjoon-hyung..."
      "Wait," cut of Taehyung abruptly. He pulled over a nearby chair in front on Jungkook before sitting down with his legs crossed like some kind of therapist "Ok, continue..."
      The younger took a deep breath, and continued to write "He's been so kind to me ever since the whole bus incident, but I'm not sure if it's just pity or a sense of responsibility for what happened. Or if this is something I can hang on to even if I get my voice back....I'm so confused.."
       V laced his fingers together on his lap "I see...Kookie, tell me what do you think of Namjoon-hyung."
       Jungkook blushed before replying "I-I think he's really nice and caring, pretty strong and smart too. It's like, he always knows a solution and I guess I kind of envy him for that. He always keeps his cool and is composed through almost everything, but always there when you need him. And...I guess he's pretty good looking too"
"Everything you've said seems to be positive about him. Hell, from what you said it sounds like your head over heels in love with our Leader." Replied Taehyung slowly with a chuckle "But let me ask you this..." he added in a serious tone "What do you think he thinks of you?"
The Maknae paused at the question. He had never thought about Namjoon's point of view on the whole thing. It was a good question though....what was he to he older? V must have noticed his hesitation, because he didn't even give the younger a chance to respond "Look Jungkook ,nothing is going to change just by you moping about it. I know you're confused, but the answers you need are right there. Namjoon-hyung is in the Prop Room right now, go and tell him how you feel. Worse comes to worse, he completely rejects you and you never speak to each other ever again..."
"Wow, thanks hyung, I can just feel the confidence flowing into me.." Thought the younger sarcastically
"I'm not finished" said the older as if he read his mind "What I'm trying to say is that you're feelings, no matter how strong, won't get through some as dense as him unless you say it to his face. I'm sure that he feels the same about you, Kookie, so go. Tell him you love him, and settle once and for all those feelings you have in your heart."
After taking in V's surprisingly inspiration speech, Jungkook nodded strongly and looked the other in the eye, before turning around and running out the door. "Go get him!" He heard his best friend call after him.
"Taehyung is right" he thought as he turned the corridor to the Prop Room "Being all sad and mopey about this won't change reality. So, I'm going to tell Namjoon-hyung how I feel...and maybe, just maybe, he'll feel the same way towards me."
After a few more hallways, he came face to face with the large, black swinging door labeled "Prop Room". Jungkook tiled his head towards the door "I guess hyung is probably getting his prop for the shoot...well, here goes nothing." He put his left hand in a tight fist over his heart, breathed deeply in and out, then wrote on his notebook before pushing the door slowly open with his right.
"Sorry for interrupting hyung, but there's something I need to tell you..." He had written in advance in front on him. He looked up, and saw him, just as he had wanted, but... Jungkook gasped, and felt his body grow weak. He dropped the notebook and the pen, the cap skittered loudly across the floor for a few seconds, then stopped completely. Just like the youngest's heart:

Namjoon and Jin were there right in front of him, with their lips interlocked over the table.
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Because Namjin is more canon that Kookiemonster ;-;. AND YA'LL ARE JUST GOING TK HAVE TO WAIT TO SEE WUT HAPPENS NEXT.Anyways, don't forget to leave a vote and any comment or correction! Keeps me motivated :3