We Found Love(A Connor Franta FanFiction)

Chapter 23

After Connor came back we just talked and came up with an idea that we both seen on tumblr. We took a small box and stuck two notes inside of them, each note explaining why we fell in love with each other. One was mine and the other was his. We also put our first picture together in the box to show our memories. We did this idea because whenever we got into a fight we would open the box, read the notes, and remember why we fell in love.

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After my first whole day, Connor & I decided to get some Starbucks, head back to our dorms to just talk things over about life, love, and everything in between.

"Peyton?" Connor asked me. I could hear the worriness in his voice. I was afraid to answer.

"Um, yea?" i coughed out afraid of his words he was going to say.

He paused for a awhile then spoke up again.

"Describe what it's like to cut."

This is hard to explain, how do I even try to explain. Its basically just brings me pleasure and I'm not sure how to explain it but I managed to.

"Well, go to the beach and walk in the water blindfolded. You just keep walking, you don't know where you're going. You just know you're going deeper. That's what the build up to cutting feels like. You don't know where you're going. Depression has blinded you. All you know is you're going deeper. Now just keep going until you drown. You want air, you want relief, you don't want to be drowning anymore. Now imagine the relief when someone pulls you out of the water. That's what cutting is. Relief. Relief from all the pain you've been drowning in. Relief from not feeling good enough. Relief from all the pain from the bullies at school. Relief from feeling like your fat. Relief from your imperfections and insecurities. You might find cutting disgusting and you might never understand it, but when you're drowning, you need saving. You need relief. So what is cutting like? It's relief."

I'm guessing he was speechless. I turned my head to stare at him to already see him staring at me with a worried look on his face.

He moved his arm and placed it around my waist, hugging me close to him. I felt his tears stain into my shirt.

"Please, promise me?"

"I promise."

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A/N: lol hey guess who finally put up chapter 23?! this girl :))

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