Im Only Exotic

Chapter 5

i was walking on the beach by myself crying softly i was alone now. my brother. i had a brother but hes gone too and where is my mother? mother where r u ? he appears out of nowhere and takes my hand. this man.

he calls my name over and over again. im  not alone. i have jace just like i used too before ..........when we were young. then the waves come and pull him from me i scream over and over again but hes drowned at sea.

   i wake up sweaty and tangled in my blankets. my dreams are getting worse usually i have anison but they took him away too.

i look at the clock it was 5:30 we didnt have to be in class til 8.

i hopped out of bed and threw on some shorts and a sports bra grabbed my ipod and headed out the door to my fave secret trail.

it was warm and a little muggy perfect day for me to run. I got on my suzuki motorcycle to get there faster it took me about five min to get to the trail which on foot would have taken about twenty.

it was beautiful wild trail hidden well by the trees that led to a small meadow. i hid my bike in the trees and jogged for about 20 minutes to the beat of kanye west amazing and stronger until i reached the meadow.

in the middle of the meadow was a cool lake. it was a hidden piece of earth that i'd never told anyone about the place where i went to think and relax.

the animals that where there had eventually gotten used to me and came out and even approched me now i discovered it when i was 12 2 weeks after l found out i was going to private school and ran away. id kept running until i'd come across a meadow.

so i memorized it on my way back like sensei had taught me then i went home. now i still come here at 16.

i laid down on my back and a herd of deer came to eat  the grass i watched them for a while then got up and ran back to my bike.

i had to get ready for school by the time i'd gotten back home through the basement door. it was  6:35. i did yoga for 15 minutes then took a shower and went downstairs to cook breakfast what i saw downstairs could have knocked me over with a feather.

sitting there drinking coffee like she never left was my mother.

i let out a breath i didn't know id been holding and she looked up at me cooly.

"hey my lexa how did you sleep?"

I didn't answer her i just walked back upstairs no i ran to Anisons room and jumped on his bed.

he woke up startled"waahhhh ohh hey lex wha-"

he looked at my teary face. he pulled me into a hug and mumbled into my hair"what happened did mom do something?"

i nodded then looked up at him like the pouty baby i was and said "she came back like she was never gone."

he pulled back and looked down at me his face almost enraged but slightly calm when he spoke his voice was steely.

"shes back right now? what did she say?"

i looked at him and replied"hi my lexa how did you sleep." i tried to make it sound like mockery but my voice broke at the end.

He hugged me and said "all right lets go downstairs and sort all this out."

he pulled me off his bed and downstairs to our mother. she hadnt moved from where i left her. she was looking out over the back porch through the windows.

anison cleared his throat and called her when she didn't respond when she looked over at us smiling i felt anger flare up around the confusion i had felt.

she was still smiling when anison nudged me and said "look, something doesnt look right about her."

i looked back to see what he was talking about thinking he was trying to make me feel better but as i looked i noticed small things like how her eyes were glassy and unfocused and her smile looked slightly deranged her hair was a mess then suddenly as if sensing my scrutiny of her she shook whatever was wrong with her off and gave us a real smile.

"hey kids sorry i was a little lost in my thoughts"she looked at us apologetically almost childlike.

after an  akward moment of silence she spoke again "i have something to tell you about our family and my job and it may come as a shock so i want you to sit down."