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Chapter 6 Dannikas POV

Two days earlier

"......I told you dannika its almost time to bring them in. You know you have no choice im sorry to say that to you but you knew it was coming. You can't protect them anymore and i have a feeling it will make things much easier."

I didn't like to think about telling my children i racked my brain desperatly for an alternative to the horrible truth staring me in the face. I don't think i can do it. But i know i have to. I'm sure they will forgive me.

I mean thats why I put them in training right?

I wanted to walk away from these thoughts but i couldn't i pulled over the car on my way to the mission. I sat at my wheel and cried then i stopped myself abruptly.

sternly i reminded my self that i am Dannika when its time I know I can do it!

After i convinced my self i dried my tears and began to meditate on my mission when i was ready i left leaving doubts for a safer time.

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BACK TO PRESENT

I heard Alexis come in downstairs from her run. i guess she hadn't noticed my car which is understandable since she came in through the back and went up the back steps.

i made some coffee and sat down at the island and waited for my children to come down my thoughts transported to what their reactions might be i got lost at them and didn't notice my childs approach until i heard her let out a breath.

i looked at her looking astonished to see me and a calmly as i could i said

"Hey my lexa how did you sleep."

i couldn't bring myself to smile but there was no time to do that because as soon as i finished speaking she turned and ran upstairs as if the sight of me horrified her and it probably did.

I left a Note this time though. I was suprised myself i had anticipated being gone longer than a day but i was here.

i looked out over the back porch and again to feel terrified for their reaction to what i had to say. If her reaction to just seeing me was like that after i told them i don't know what would happen.

I have to let them know that i love them. I raked my hands through my hair and then looked back out the window. i wonder if they know i love them. my eyes started to blur as i held back tears.

i heard anison call my name but i didnt answer if i had my voice would break. i looked over at them and tried to smile. Alexis looked at me in anger and confusion.

i continued to look at them savoring at least this quiet moment before it happened. well i guess i have to speak sometime.

i shook myself off and gave them a warm smile and said"hey kids i was a little lost in my own thoughts." i smiled at them apologetically.

they just continued to stare at me. i guess i deserved that.

i broke the silence " i have something to tell you about our family and my job and it may come as a shock to you so i want you to sit down." i couldnt tell what their reaction was as i got up and led them to the living room couch. I cleared my throat and began to speak ......

"i dont know how to begin this but i want you both to know that i love you very much and everything im telling you now is to protect you and that i dont want you to hate me."

i looked at both of them in turn letting my words sink in.Lexa rolled her eyes when i said i loved them and it hurt, hopefully when i tell them theyll understand.

I began " as you both know i am frequently leaving for business trips and i know i dont tell you where im going or why and sometimes not even when. The reason i dont tell you is because i dont know myself and the time it takes to write you a note or call could be ...dangerous."

they both looked up at me sharply at the word. Anison quickly asked" why would it be dangerous? Why is there even a chance of danger? is your job dangerous?" he spit the questions off rapid fire not giving me enough time to answer his questions

. i chuckled lightly at his eagerness and responded " when im finished speaking hopefully it will all become clear"

I continued my speech"i've been keeping my job a secret from you for as long as i can risking your resentment for me." i continued speaking ignoring their looks

" I am not a spy, but an Dangerous Persons Assassin for the government or DPA sector if you want the official name." they both looked at me incrediously after about 5 sec

Anison screamed" THAT IS SO COOL WHY DIDNT YOU TELL US!?".

I didn't want to bring him down but i had to let him know that this was serious. lexa reaction was just quiet contemplation.

"Anison!" i said sharply though his reaction to my tone made me soften it

" kids this is serious this is not like in movies where theres always a happy ending and no one gets hurt. my life is dangerous and i'm sorry but so is yours." i hoped the remorse was clear in my voice.

Alexis finally spoke up."why? why now? i'm sure theres a reason" her inquisitive eyes searched mine.

I looked down sadly. " your right honey there is a reason. Our entire family generations back have always been the assasins. You are to be trained to do the same. as i was and my brothers and sisters and our parents before us and there parents before them. it's a responibility that for as long as i could i avoided for you."

They looked at me surprised. i sighed and continued." I take on more missions than anyone because the less missions their are the less help is needed. for as long as i could i wanted to keep you from living with the souls of the people you've killed but i can't anymore." i said hopelessly looking down into my lap.

i looked up at them and said" its your turn now. i hope you'll forgive me" tears ran down my face but then the most astonishing thing happened.

Anison came and wrapped his arms around me and whispered fiercely"I love you mom. thanks you" Alexis got up behind him and did the same.

i was shocked and relieved. this was not the reaction i had expected. when my siblings and i found out no one talked to eachother.

i was so fortunte to have this family. They let go of me and we began discussing what this meant for us as a family. i smiled and felt like a load had been lifted off my shoulders. i had my family back. And i wasnt gonna let them go.

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i know i know a boring chapter im sorry forgive me for the dialouge i had to explain because this stories moving really slow with this out of the way hopefully we get to the romance and the action soon huh. ;D dont worry well get there but commen vote tell me if you want more if not. *head falls down in shame* sorry if so * head pops back up and silverphire does cartwheels and goes streaking* syke i will not go streking what you think this is college football