And To Think This Is Just The Beginning

Chapter 11: Deep Thinking

It's been three days since the boys were dropped off at the airport. And there was only two things running through my mind these past couple days.

1. Niall Horan

2. Moving at the end of the week and i will be able to see Niall more.

So you could pretty much say that Niall Horan was the only thing running through my mind ever since that kiss. But doubt he likes me more than a friend or did he just do that to make me forgive him fully? I dont really know, but what I do know is that I myself felt somthing in that kiss..something that I never have before. Good or bad? I dont have really no clue but my brain is telling me one thing while my heart is telling me another, and I am kind of hoping that this feeling I haven't been able to shake in the pit of my stomach since he kissed me would help me but it is just making everything worse. Harder to think and focus, harder to talk, harder feels for him. Not just those fangirl feels, i mean those too but I am talking about the feelings you get when you are are with someone you feel is your soulmate for life. Which is close to the fangirl feels but it could be with anyone. Famous or not but in my case..Famous, which is something that not alot of people ever get to say. " Niall Horan kissed me and said he never regreted trying to kiss me earlier." It seems like I am just living in my own dreams and I could just wake up at any moment and my heart would shatter because of the thought of it not being real. Im in for it, and in for it BAD!

I have just been packing my things while in deep thought these couple of days. I mean, is this what i really want? Of couse it's what you want, dont be crazy! But it is so far away! You will have the boys Allie, chill. But what if my parents forget about you because you are so far away! Alison Rosemary Jackson! Shut your face they are not going to forget about their second child. wow i really need to stop talking to myself. okay. STOP! so as you can see i have lots of worries but things to over weigh my worries. But it was a big thing since it is so far from here without my family with me. but since i have known One Direction personally they already feel like family.

I was packing up my clothes and such and putting some in a big box and some in a suitcase. I had most of my things packed I just had my furniture, my posters, picture frames, lamps, and a TV and stuff but I still need to get other things for my apartment. This is so surreal saying "my apartment " I just guess it now hit me that I am not in high school anymore. I am going to collage.and I will be on my own.

"knock.knock" I heard the sound of my little brothers voice.

"hey butt munch." I teased as he stuck his tongue out at me. I grinned. "is there anything that ya need Bradley?" I asked because he never usually is with me he is ususally out with his friends or in his room playing video games.

"um well, you know how you would usually ask Aaron for brotherly advice before he went to collage?"

"yeahhh?"

"well can I ask you for some sisterly advice?" oh my guuurrrrrdddd! Bradley has never asked me or mom or dad anything like this. he usually keeps to himself alot about advice and stuff! after all. he is a 13 year old boy what do ya expect for him to pour his heart out to you.

"of course!" I said patting a seat next to me on my bed for him to take. "alright what do you need to know?" I asked.

"umm, well. I really like this girl in my grade and I ha-. you know what this is stupid. nevermind." he went to get up but I pulled him back down.

"no! Bradley you never talk about your feelings so this must be very important. you need to get this off if your chest! now finish!!!"

"okay well anyway, we have almost every class together and as you already know I am like the class clown. and get into trouble. well, every girl in my class talks to me and flirts...except her. and she is so beautiful, and everytime I try talking to her she rolls her eyes and ignores me. I never did anything! but I want her. I don't know why but I am just attracted to her like she is calling my name. even though that is the problem. why is she being like this?"

"Haha,bud. believe it or not but there are some girls who don't like funny loud obnoxious boys who get in trouble and are the center if attention. just try to dial it down once you go back to school. And then ask her nicely why she doesn't talk to you back. but in a nicer way. maybe get to know her better become great friends and if you still really like this girl. go for it what is stopping you because if she say no. it is her loss and obviously she is not the one for you. you are only 13..you have plenty if time. TRUST ME." I told him hopefully it will help.

"thanks Alison, I am going to miss you... I-I Love You Sis." and he hugged me. I getting was getting sappy because Bradley has never told me he loved me since he was just a baby.

"I will miss you lots too. I love you too Bud." I said hugging him back.

mom called us for dinner I got up to go but Bradley grabbed me and we walked to the kitchen together. wow. I have to admit, I'm going to miss this little squirt!

we ate dinner and I took up the empty plates and put them in the sink. I cleared the rest of the things off of the table. I started to run the water so it could warm up and I was washing off the table when my mom came up to me.

"Honey, are you that nervous?"

"mom. what are you talking about?"

"Allie, you clean like crazy when you are nervous or something is bothering you."

"I am fine mom. " I reassured her.

"not from the way you are scrubbing the paint off of the plate. so tell me what's the matter." she said.

"well, I am just now realizing that I am growing up. I mean, for goodness sakes, I am moving to a different country and I just hope that you all don't forget about me." I explained on the verge of tears.

My mother pulled me into a hug about to cry. " sweetie we would never forget you! you are our daughter! we love you."

"I love you too. Now stop you're going to make me cry."

"aww sorry. well why dont you let me finish cleaning up and you go and pack some more so you can get it finished tomorrow and have one more day to spend with us."

"okay, see you tomorrow, love you."

I went upstairs and finished my clothes and packed them up and picked out my outfits for the next couple days. Then I put all my pictures and posters and things on my shelves and walls into boxes. I figured that was enough for tonight and I could finish the rest tomorrow. I then got ready for bed and then plugged in my phone to charge it. I got underneath the covers and let sleep take over me.

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A/N: sorry this one is kind of boring but it was needed for Allie to think about things and her to realize she is growing up.

Speaking of growing up. HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIAM JAMES PAYNE!!!!!!

ohh my goodness gracious 20 YEARS...they grow up so fast. ( its a couple days after his B-day, but still.)

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Love youuuu!

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