Mother like to Ciel

Chapter 14 I'm so sorry

~My point of view

Claude insisted I lay in bed with him I did as asked and when he looked like he was asleep I walked out and back into the room I had been staying in then to the bathroom I began brushing my teeth my mouth tasted as if somebody dumped a bucket of horse shit in it Damn Claude's mouth tasted like horse shit. My memoires don't register this happening before. Suddenly my head ached a memory of Sebastian and I making out was this forced? I seem to be enjoying it but Claude said he hated me? I was more confused than ever I was walking back to my room when my bedroom window opened there stood Sebastian he looked hurt. "Sebastian what are you doing here? If you're here to kill me again I'll scream." I stated with a glare he looked into my eyes then in an instant he had me in his arms "Don't scream." He said as he eyes again locked with mine and he smashed his lips onto mine and my head ached my real memories flashing before me and Sebastian's mouth tasted sweeter then candy. "I think I love you." He said with a smile I returned it "I remember you now, the real you my lover." I said pulling him for another kiss his arms wrapped around my waist mine around his neck. "I missed you so much." He said pulling away "Claude's mouth tasted like horse shit. I had to brush my freaking tongue like twenty times to get it out of mouth." I laughed and made some gagging sounds he laughed with me I missed the rumble of his chest when he did that I rubbed my head into his head and refused to let him go. "I think I may love you too, and I'm so sorry take me home please back to the manor." He nodded and picked me up bridal style then we heard slow claps. We turned to see Claude "Put me down a moment Sebby." I smirked and he did as I asked I walked over to Claude and he smirked but then my hand went straight through his chest and gripped his heart and ripped it thorough when he fell to the ground I smashed his heart and smiled as his blood coated me Sebastian smiled behind me as I bent down and ripped Claude's head off I was having way too much fun with this so I stepped back placing Claude's head next to his body. I walked back to Sebastian and he held me. We heard Alois coming down the hallway. "You incompetent butler! Where are you Claude?!" he walked in and dropped next to Claude's body in tears. "No! Claude! Don't leave me alone!" he screamed I didn't feel bad about killing Claude I felt a little bad that I killed Alois's love interest. Until he lunged at me "You Fucking bitch!" I kicked him with ease I stepped onto his throat "Don't kill me please! I'm sorry!" I snapped his neck without a second thought I walked to Sebastian I was not going to sleep well I killed a kid. Sebastian picked me up and Took me back to the manor "He was going to die anyway his contract was almost up." Sebastian said trying to make me feel better. I felt a little better but not much. We walked into the foyer and Ciel ran up to me hugging me tightly "Mom are you ok? I missed you." I stroked his head and hugged him back "Yes honey I'm fine, I killed Claude and Alois so we don't need to worry." I said soothingly I walked Ciel up to his room and he changed into his nightshirt Sebastian and I tucked him in I kissed him on the forehead and I walked with Sebastian to his room. "Goodnight Sebastian." I said as I turned to walk away he grabbed my arm "Stay with me tonight." I turned to face him and wrapped my arms around him he wrapped his arms around me and lifted me up and walked into his room shutting the door. I giggled lightly. He put me down and in an instant he had me pinned to the wall arms above my head "You smell like Claude we need to fix that." he said with a grin I nodded even though my face was a bright shade of crimson I looked down. A tear slipped honestly I was ashamed of myself I can't believe I was brainwashed I even forgot Sebastian and thought Claude was my lover. Sebastian placed to fingers on my chin making me look at him then he took his thumb and wiped my tear away. "What's wrong?" he asked and I sighed sadly "I feel horrible I was so stupid I got brainwashed and I couldn't even fight back! I thought Claude was my lover and that you hated me and I even kissed him." I was so upset I just let the tears fall "You must think I'm a terrible person maybe you even hate me." I sobbed he pulled me close as I sobbed into his chest "I could never hate you. Because I... Love Yo-" I cut him off knowing what he was going to say I gripped his tie and pulled him onto my lips his tongue grazed my bottom lip I denied him access and he of course in turn he closed my nose I gasped and he took his chance and slid his tongue in exploring every part as if he would die if he didn't it felt like he needed me right there or he would go mad. I wrapped my arms around his neck and slid my hands into his hair tugging it lightly he gripped my waist and pulled me closer I moaned ever so slightly and I could feel him smirk against my lips he was enjoying himself. We pulled apart panting softly "I missed you." He breathed I giggled and kissed him again "What? I don't think I heard you Sebby-Kun." I cooed he smirked I laughed he gripped my hips tighter "Shall I show you?" he asked the smirk still playing on his lips I placed my finger to his lips and winked "Nyaa Sebby-Kun show me." I purred he picked me up and slammed me into the bed it got heated from there...