Saving Sang - Abandoned but being revisited

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Warning: Self harm inside the ***'s

I walk into the house through the slider door and sneak up to my room. I put my bag under the bed incase anyone comes in.

I leave my room and lock it so that Marie won't come in. I go to my mother's room and knock.

"What?" she snaps.

I open the door a crack, "Would you like something to eat?"

"I can get something for myself you bitch. Now is your room clean?" she snaps.

"Almost." I lie, it is always clean.

"Don't even think about leaving it until it is! Now go!"

"Yes, mother," as soon as the door is closed I smile a small one of victory.

I walk back up to my room and see my sister.

***

She glares, "What do you want, Fatty? Why are you even still here? I thought you would have killed yourself already. You should."

I go to my room and look in my mirror.

She is right, you are fat. It is a good thing mother never lets you eat much. And why are you alive? Nobody likes an ugly sad little girl like you.

Stop.

I bet those boys only want you to come out of pity. After all, you are pitiful. With looks and a body like yours.

STOP.

I wonder how they would like your disgusting scars. How would they feel when they know that you have depression? That-

STOP!

I run over and open my bag knowing only one thing will shut them up, even if it is only for a small amount of time. I find my blades and roll up my sleeves, scars litter my arm.

Then I go into the bathroom and I slide the metal across my skin. Over and over again.

Worthless.

Mistake.

Fat.

Slut.

Whore.

Scum.

Pitiful.

Ugly.

Weak.

With each word I cut twice or more. I am tired of this. Of life.

But now I have friends. I hope.

I clean the cuts fast and realize that I have to wrap the entire bottom half of my arm because there are more than I thought.

I wrap my arm and clean up the blood that got on the floor. Good thing it isn't on my shirt.

***

I go back to my room and put the blade away. I take a deep breathe and practice my smile. After my walls are up and smile is perfected I sneak downstairs after locking my room and go out the slider door again.

I walk over to the boys standing by the car on their phones.

"Hello, boys" (Supernatural, anyone?;))

They jump, "How did you sneak up on us like that? That was amazing!"asks Kota.

I shrug they were probably just acting scared.

He frowns but smiles quickly, "If were all ready, lets go."

I nod and jump into the back. I wonder what he was frowning about.

Probably second guessing bringing a disgusting person like you with them.

I sigh, I really am not even a smidgen pretty so why do they want me to come with them?

The sigh catches Kota's attention. He has a questioning look on his face so I smile. He does so back and turns on some music.

A classical station comes on. Victor looks at me through the rear view mirror, "I can change it if you want, Sang."

I smile, "I like Summer by Vivaldi, but Winter is my favorite."

He looks shocked. He didn't think I listened to classical music. A smile forms on his face and he pays attention I the road again.

I look out the window for awhile and we pull up at an apartment complex. I look at the boys questionly and get out with them.

Victor and Kota explain as we walk up to a door. "We have a friend coming with us so we're picking him up."

I hum in response. When we get to a door Victor knocks and pulls Kota next to him outside the doorway. "Stay there," he whispers.

I frown but do as he says and soon enough the door opens and there is a giant standing infront of me. I look up at him wide eyed. He is about a head and a half taller than Kota. He has deep black hair, dark brown, almost black, eyes that are soulful, there is a slight gruff to his striking face.

He look at me and asks with a Greek accent voice , "Are you lost?"

I look at the boys and they laugh. The guy looks at them and shakes his head with a smile. "Its about time you got here."

See? I told you that you are a bother. You made them late you IDIOT!

I snap back to reality as soon as I got that message.

"We really need to work on your people skills. You are supposed to say, 'Hello' not, 'Are you lost?'"

"She looked lost!" He looked at me, "I'm sorry, I'm Silas."

"I'm Sang." I say with a smile. Silas seems nice too.

"It is very nice to meet you, Sang. Are you coming with us?" at my nod he turns back to Kota and Victor, "Lets go."

We walk back to the car after he locks the door. I go to get in the back but Silas open the front and tells me to sit up there.

"You have longer legs so you should sit there," I tell him

He is about to argue but I jump into the back.He sighs and I smirk at him.

Victor turns the car on and the music plays. Silas goes to change it but Victor stops him, "Sang likes it."

Silas turns to me shocked, "Really?"

"I also like lot of other things, like rock," I answer truthfully.

He turns back to Victor, "Ha, you're outnumbered, Kota likes rock."

"Kota likes everything."

The music debate lasts till we get to the mall.

Wow. It's big. I wonder how many stores there are.

Yeah, like you will ever shop in them. As soon an employee see your ugly, fat body you will be kicked out. Besides, you don't deserve new clothes.

You're right. I am to worthless to get new clothes. Those are for people that deserve them.

Of course I am right. I am still wondering why these good looking guys would want to hang out with you. If I were them and seen you I would have turned the other way. After telling how horrible you look of course.

I get snapped out of my mind when Kota calls my name, "Are you okay Sang? You zoned out for a second."

I fake yet another smile, "I'm good, just got stuck in my head." Yep. It is true. I got stuck in that dreadful place.

He smiles but it doesn't reach his eyes, "Okay, lets go."

We start to walk towards the entrance. I just hope I don't make a fool out of myself.