TINDER

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An hour later he decided to get out of the shower and sit by me. I was on the couch eating some chips and watching tv, I didn't notice his presence until he put his head on my shoulder.

"I don't know what's going on with me", he said barely above a whisper.

"Nathan I am here for you whenever you need me. But just please, please try for me ? Just try.", I said reassuringly.

"April I'm trying! Don't you get that ? I AM TRYING!", he said getting up of the couch yelling at me. I was struck with his words and hurt at the same time. Maybe he was trying and I just couldn't see it. Maybe I was the big jerk, pushing him on edge. I looked down into my lap ashamed of myself.

"I'm sorry Natha-"

"-you know what April . Just go. Leave. I don't need you anymore.", and with that he walked away leaving me on the couch. Am I wrong? Am I pushing him ? My emotions were everywhere and i didn't even have the confidence to stand up and leave. I didn't want to leave, I might not see him at all or forever. For months or weeks, I can't stand not seeing him. But if this is what he wants, I have to learn to accept that. And he probably just didn't want me in his life. Probably used me to get over his phases. But this is not his fault at all, it's mine and that girl Carlise. He then soon walked back into the living room.

"Liam is waiting outside for you.", was all he said . I looked up at him with watery eyes, his eyes were cold again, unreadable, and just cold. I just couldn't go, I couldn't leave the couch, I was stuck here afraid of all the possibilities that might happen.

"Well, tell Liam to go home and get some sleep. I'm not leaving you here by yourself."

"April, please just go, I'm not a kid any-"

"-yeah, your right, your not a kid", I said shaking my head at him when a tear slipped from my eyes, "but your attitude is and Nathan I am not leaving, so get that out of your head now!", all was quiet and I kind of felt bad for my choice of words. He stared at me just up and down. His messy blonde hair was in its usual state, but not his face.

"April you have to go, you ha-"

"Fine. Nathan. Just fine", and with that I got up and packed my things and left. If this is what he wants then this his what he gets, he'll call me sooner or later and I would come right back into arms. I'm not the one mad at him, I'm mad at myself because I didn't even try to help him, maybe he didn't want the help. I just couldn't imagine him being by himself an acting like this, he can or may harm himself or others around him.

We stopped in front of my house and I told Liam a slight thank you, before walking in. I couldn't believe what just happened, I headed to the bathroom and started loosing it. I went from just bawling my eyes out, to throwing things around the house. This all the pain and hurt I've been letting out, and it feels like a weight has been lifted off of my shoulders.

Then someone had knocked on the door, I got myself together wiped my face and answered the door. Surprisingly, it was Liam.

"W-what are you doing here?", I said looking confused. He looked really tired with all of his hair messy and the suit he had put on didn't even looked proper, I mentally giggled.

"Can I please crash here? I'm tired and I don't me-"

"Yes", I said letting out a small smile. "I need the company anyway. Care for coffee?"

"Sure", he said letting of a smirk and walking in. "Thank you so much April. I'm sor-"

"Liam. It's fine really", I said closing the door and heading to the kitchen where I heard him follow and sit at the island.