TINDER

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Nathan POV

I finally had the guts to give April a call but she didn't answer, so I left a voicemail.

"I'm so sorry April. I'm sorry for the things I said to you and I'm sorry for letting you go. I just felt like you didn't need to be left with a broken heart. I was actually healing when you came around but now, the phases are getting worser and worser by the minute. I needed your help, and I've shouldn't have pushed it away.",I paused and was on the verge of crying. "Hey, remember when we shared our first kiss? Remember when you said I looked like that Gale guy? And remover when I never told you I fell in love with you."

An after that I had a phase again. Throwing things around the house, yelling, and almost pulling out the hair off my head. I wish it would all go away, everything I've done and everything I said. I wish I never met April, because then I would end up breaking her heart.

My ex was right, I am worthless. The only thing I'm worth is money and being a CEO of a big company. Why doesn't anybody love me ? Why do I fuck up so much?

I really do need April. I decided to call again, but this time she actually answered.

April POV

After getting myself together of the voicemail Nathan had just sent me, someone called and I answered sniffling my nose.

"Hello?"

"April? Is that you? Are you okay?"

"Nathan?..... N-no I'm fine, I just I'm fine...... How are you?"

"I'm not okay."

"What do you mean?"

"April I need you. I should've never let you go, I don't know what I was thinking at all... I just wanted what's best for you........... I love you April. Did you know that? I honestly love you."

"Did you know that I love you too?", I said slightly sobbing at hearing him calling me. He sounded broken and hurt meanwhile I'm out having dates with men. The guilt started to build up, and a big lump formed in my throat. What if I left Vincent? But that wouldn't be fair to him at all. Me leaving him with no reason at all would make him question our whole relationship, and I couldn't do that. But what about Nathan? He needs me and I just couldn't leave him either. I couldn't believe I had to choose between men and I just couldn't do that. I was stuck in the middle of a debut and I was the one to settle the fiery. How am I suppose to tell Vincent about Nathan? How am I suppose to tell Nathan about Vincent? Questions came rushing through my mind until someone spoke up.

"April are you there?"

"Yeah I'm here."

"Okay. I'll call you back tomorrow. I love you April."

"I love you too Nathan.", and with that we both hung up the phone and I broke down in tears. I've created a problem, a HUGE problem and I couldn't figure out a way to get through it at all. I'm just a big mess up, a big fuck.

Not only was I being unloyal to the both of them, but I was playing both of them.

God dammit April! Who do you love? Choose. It only comes down to one choice. Leave a broken heart, or take a broken heart. Your choice.