(Warning Sexual content and triggering content)
After watching back the edited video, Simon put it to automatically upload to his main channel. He usually manually uploaded his main channel videos but he wanted to spend more time with me so he set it to automatic. I love him, the way that he puts me first instead of his channel. We decided to cuddle on his bed for the rest of the day, we were talking about all sorts of things, what we studied and what we wanted to do and then the topic changed to a slightly more sensitive topic.
'Why is your channel called Miniminter Simon? Is it because your minter is mini?' I say cheekily while winking at him.
'You'll have to wait and see' he smirks at me with his left dimple showing causing me to blush and hide away in his chest.
Me being the weirdo I am I jokingly put my hand quickly on his groin area, 'hmmmmm, I can't feel anything' I wink at him again. Simon let out a little gasp is a sassy way, 'well it's not in action yet, I'm a grower not a shower thank you very much'. I decided that I was genuinely curious about his size, cause I mean every girl is curious at the size of their boyfriends dick every so often, and I jokingly start to rub it to see. Simon lifts his head back and let's out a small moan.
'Well I guess it's not so mini after all' I say pulling my hand away.He looked sad that I stopped but I told him later tonight I will finish what I started. He soon looked happy again and we spent some of the day in bed watching Netflix. We had to keep turning the volume down and we were watching skins and there was a lot of 'noises' shall we say, we didn't want Josh and Freya to think we were doing something.
While we were watching Netflix I started thinking to myself, what if Simon only wanted sex? What if he was going to leave me after we did it? This was a big fear of mine as it had happened before and I was broken as I thought the guy truly loved me but, again, it was the last and it didn't matter. I was with Simon now.we had now moved off skins and was watching pretty little liars. It's such a weird and tense show. During one of their attempts to catch the murderer it was all quiet and right as the music built up my stomach made a really loud noise. I start laughing nervously. 'Siiiiiimmmmoooonnnnnnn, can I has food?
He sighs 'yes babe, I'll be right back'As he is downstairs he gets a text message, I glance over at the screen and it was from Ethan. It was a funny text and it got me worrying.
E- Hey Si, so I was wondering if u wanted 2 hook up again, I know u're w/ Charlotte but I can't stop thinking about u remember what happened last time? you gave in to me. xoxox.
Wait what? Was Emon actually real at one point? Oh god, is that why Ethan was staring at me and him? Is Simon gay? Does he even love me? What does he mean last time? Bad thoughts fill my head. I sink into his bed and cover my head, I've got to say something to Simon, just to find out whether he really loved me. I mean, he hasn't said I love you too me yet but is it too soon? Christ Charlotte, snap out of it, stop over thinking for once!
Simon comes in the room carrying ham sandwich and a glass of coke 'here ya go babe'.
I smile at him and take it off him. I play about with it first as I had lost my appetite. Simon clearly saw this and turned the tv Off.'Baby's? What's wrong?' He looks at me with fear in his eyes.
I shook my head but he wasn't taking nothing for an answer. He pulls me into a hug and squeezes me. 'Don't me have to squeeze it out of you' he says, trying to lighten the mood but failing. I decode it would be best to just come out and say it.'Simon, are you gay?' When I said that his grip loosens and he goes pale in the face.
'I.. I... No. I'm straight' he stutters out.
'Well what's with the message off Ethan, I didn't mean to look but your phone went and the message popped up on screen and what happened last time?!' I blurt out. He looked scared and disappointed, was he disappointed in me? or himself?
'Charlotte... Why did you look at my messages? That invasion of privacy. I am straight! and nothing happened last time.' With saying that he points me in the direction of his door.
Without thinking I run to my bedroom, slammed the door and went straight to my bathroom. I haven't done this in ages... I don't want to do this but the urge is too much, it's such a stupid thing but I can't help myself. i am crying heavily while i pull out the blade. He lied to me, he is clearly gay and he clearly still like Ethan. I don't have anything against gays but if he had just told me before he let me get attached. I run the shower water so Josh can't hear my cry's. I slowly but surely did it. One. Two. Three. blood drips off m wrist and into the plug hole, it stings so bad but it helps what i'm feeling sort of. i hear a loud banging on my door, it was Freya. She still remembers the problems I had with the blades.
With one swift movement of her bobby pin she unlocks the door and locks herself in with me. Without hesitation she pulls me out the shower and flushes the blade down the toilet while hugging me tightly. I start to feel light headed and i flop into Freya's arms. 'Josh Josh, help me quick Charlotte needs an ambulance!' Josh and Simon burst in.
'Simon, get out! look what you've done to her!' Josh shouts at Simon.
'I didn't mean for any of this to happen, Charlotte I love you! please stay with me' That's the last i heard before i slipped into unconsciousness with blood covering my arms'.
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A MINIMINTER FF//I can't believe it
FanficWhen Charlotte finally meet her long lost brother Josh she met his friends and soon later she falls in love with a tall Handsome blonde boy. But how will it end? Will her past catch up to her? WARNING: SENSITIVE TOPICS. DO NOT READ IF YOU ARE TRIGGE...