It was never how it appeared on the surface
Fake smiles, white lies, but feeling so worthless
A great performance, but don't peek behind the curtain
How it got this way I am so uncertain
I don't want to be a part of your drunken conversation
I'd rather stay in my room and live in isolation
You were supposed to be my parents
Taking care of me but instead I took care of you
Your parenting never made sense
I can't believe all that you put me through
Because of you I had to grow up so fast
Because of you I'm constantly haunted by my past
I was lucky enough to get out and move a state away
You seem glad as if you never wanted me to stay
Your words still echo in the back of my mind
Like how I'm a fuck up and such a waste of time
And how in life I'll get nowhere
And how I'm so clueless and unaware
Now all I'm left with is this fucking despair
Remembering how you would hit me then turn around and tell me you cared
Please cut all your sugarcoated lies
I waited so long for us to say our goodbyes
If you ever need me you are on your fucking own
Don't ever try to tell me that house was my home
//April 5th 2016/9:37 pm//
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My Gr8 Poetry
PoetryA collection of poems I have created about various aspects of my life including addiction, suicidal thoughts, self harm, family troubles, drugs, love, heartbreak, fear, loss, depression, and more. Feel free to skip to a part you feel you will be mor...
