Whirlwind

Heart & Stomach Pains - Chapter 10

Angie took me from Jackson and started pulling me away from him. I gave back an apologetic look, he just smiled back.

"Were you ever going to tell me?" Angie asked me.

"I don't know what you mean."

"About you and Jackson. Don't deny it I saw you too. You wear both acting awkward." Angie could tell when I was in a bad mood or even if I was stressed. 

I sighed and told her about what happened. She was shocked and grossed out. She spent the whole day texting me during class asking me how it was.

The last bell rang so I went to my usual meet up place with Mai. When I got there Mai was talking to Katy and her gang. Behind her Luke was talking to Jackson very seriously. Weird. The girls all looked away from me in disgust Katy gave me a death glare, said bye to Mai then took off with her groupies.

"Hey you guys ready yet?" Mai yelled at them while walking over to me giving me a smile which I returned.

"I need to talk to Vi for a minute before you leave." He led me over to the wall so they couldn't hear us. I heard Mai scoff because she couldn't hear us.

"Um. What's up?" I was worried what was so important that it had to be right now in private?

"I know you didn't want to talk about last night but we have to." I was about to speak when he interrupted me, "Just let me speak. I-I regret last night, I shouldn't have kissed you. I'm sorry I hope this won't change our friendship too much." He said rather quickly. I had no words. Did I want a relationship with him? I just lightly nodded. There was a long pause. "Ok I should probably go. See you tomorrow Vi, bye." He practically half ran off. For the first time my heart hurt. 

Last time we broke up it didn't hurt as much. I guess we weren't even dating this time. It felt like my heart was being pushed and I could barely breathe. I imagined a little crack appearing on my heart.

I went back over the Mai and Luke. They were holding each other kissing. My stomach turned then I felt a pain in my stomach like I was being stabbed. I put my arm to my stomach, straightened up then breathed out.

They both noticed me when I breathed out. Luke looked worried but Mai looked happy, we walked home her arms linked in his. I felt physically hurt when I saw them together. Whenever I saw his eyes I felt a longing to go to the sea.

I was thinking about Luke and Jackson now, wow it was possible to be rejected by both guys you like in the span of less than one week. I needed to get my thoughts out of my head.

"I'm going to go to the beach to run today see you tomorrow Mai." I smiled at her looked at Luke he looked scared now. I looked away confused. I heard the sound of my name then bye form Mai and kept walking on.

When I got home I went into the laundry and took out my now dry sports clothes that were covered in cream. By Jackson. Why did he reject me? If he was going to do that from the start why kiss me at all? I shook my head. No more thoughts.

I wrote a note for my mum then left it on the kitchen counter.

Dear mum,

Gone running at the beach be back before 6 hopefully.

Love Silvia.

I turned walked to the door then locked it behind me on my way out then started running. I put my earphones in and my music on loud. It took a while but my thoughts finally disappeared. All I thought of was how I was breathing, running, the views around me, and the feel of running on sand.

I ran and ran, until I ran straight into a person and fell to the ground. Damn my butt hurts is all I could think. I felt a strong warm arm go around my body to pull me up. I look up into the dark brown eyes of the guy helping me up.

"Josh!" I was so surprised I never would have thought that he of all people would be here.

"Hey, you ok?" Referring to my fall.

"Oh that, yeah I'm fine thanks. Sorry I bumped into you."

"I'm not sorry that you did." I blushed.

We talked for a while. Turns out he lives in a beautiful little beach house. It was 6:30pm and I was running late. Josh gave me a grey shirt to put over my sports bra because it was cold out now.

"I'll give them back soon." I said I never liked owing people. But them owing me is a different matter altogether.

"You'd better" he said with a wink. He grabbed me then pressed his lips against mine. I could taste the salt on his lips from the ocean.I smiled and liked my lips.

He laughed, "You always did love the water even if it was bad for you." I wanted to ask what he meant but he quieted me with another kiss. Then shooed me off so I wouldn't be late.

I was running back. I was passing Mai's street soon, it was 6:43pm. As I was running past I saw Luke and Mai making out in what appeared to be Luke's car. She was straddling him. Slowly loosing each item of clothing as they went on. Mai got a text from someone then started to get changed and leave the car. She kissed him on her way out. I mentally kicked myself for wanting to strangle her.

Before I get spotted I should probably leave. I turned to go the other way. I started to run when someone grabbed my arm and pulled me back down.

What hit me first was the warmth of the person. Then the tingling were they touched me.

The familiar voice sent shivers up my spine, "Why are you spying on us Silvia? Don't tell me you're jealous?" His words and memory of him making out with Mai a second ago made me so angry.

I pushed him off and backed off a bit. "Don't call me Silvia. I didn't mean to spy on you. I definitely regret that I saw it."

I could see them together in my mind now. Every time they kissed I felt like someone punched me in the stomach then I would feel the need to be sick.

"Are you ok?" I looked back up to him. His eyes were filled with worry and horror.

"I'm fine." He could tell I was obviously lying. "I've gotta go now."

Before I could leave he said, "Is that Joshua's shirt?"

I looked down. "Oh. Yeah he lent it to me because it was cold and I only had my, ah, running clothes on." I said confused why he cared.

There was a long pause. "You better get home now, or you'll be late."

"Yeah. Bye." I mumbled loud enough for him to hear.

"Bye"

I ran to my house not looking back. The feeling was still there. Once I was home I crashed on my bed hugging my stomach. The punching grew worse and worse as I thought about Mai and Luke more. I heard a knock at my door.

"What's with all the noise? Omg sweetie are you ok?!" She asked as she kneeled down next to me squeezing my stomach. I shook my head. I felt light headed, "Its ok honey I'll explain everything later just get some rest..." She kissed me on the forehead while I drifted off into darkness. 

A few more peole are now reading the book so I'm so greatful. To my school friends who have read it from the start 'Love you'.