T r i g g e r w a r n I n g
self harm, abxuety disorder eating disorder
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stay safe xox
Joe's pov
I wake up having only had around 2 hours of sleep, before caspar and walk..... well limp into the bathroom to get ready for school.hit my head kills and the pain killers casp gave me have worn off ⚫⚫⚫⚫⚫⚫⚫⚫⚫⚫⚫⚫⚫⚫
Useless,
fat
, lasy,
waste of space,
unwanted
hated
used
loner
the demon tells me as I look in the mirror. I want to smash it but I don't so instead I pull out my best friend and worst enemy the blade and I cut, slowly to make the pain worse I cut 4 small deep lines across my wrists both of them, adding to the pain I already feel, before cleaning up after myself and getting dressed in black as usual. Placing my headphones round my neck and plugging them into my phone putting it in my pocket I walk into the kitchen
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My head is pounding today and I feel sick and dizzy as fuck .
"morning buddy!"
caspar says loudly as I walk into our kitchen
"hey do you have any pain relief?"
I ask... well mumble, hoping he does
"no sorry jojo!"
he replies a sympathetic look on his face I inwardly cry but instead start packing my bag with my headphones playing music in my ears.
Hey I know this will make the headache worse but who the fuck cares!
Caspar's pov
I hear Joe get up and walk into the bathroom but think nothing of it so I get dressed and pack my bag before walking into the kitchen"morning buddy!"
I say to Joe who looks like he would rather be dead right now
"hey do you have any pain relief?"
Joe asks me sounding exhausted
"no sorry jojo"
I tell him sadly as he looks like he could cry he lifts his headphones from his neck onto his head and goes to pack his bag,
I'll talk to zoe later see if she knows what's up with Joe!
I think making breakfast.
Time skip
Me and Joe walk to form together but while he foes to the back with his headphones on I go over to zoe and the gang"hey guys!"
I say sitting on the table
"hey caspar how's joe?"
zoe asks looking over her shoulder at her brother
"um he's okay but was asking for pain relief this morning and I don't know why I mean I gave him lots last night because of what happend but they shouldn't have run out yet!"
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Epilepsy (DISCONTINUED)
FanfictionThis book has been discontinued!! This is a jaspar fan fiction! This is my first gay jaspar relationship fan fic so sorry if it's bad. Joe Sugg (17) is the new boy in the school he is shy, quiet , he cuts (although nobody knows) and he has been bea...