Life

Its time

I lay in the bed. 10 minutes apart. The feeling of cramps just 10x's worse. My body aches.  My head sweats. My hips cracking and pulling apart.

I'm in my bedroom at moms. The lights are off. It's 3:17 am. Oliver lays next to me. I called him earlier when they started to get closer together. We walked around the neighborhood twice to help speed up labor. Bad decision. After the walk I tried all the natural remedies to jump start labor. I guess all of that worked because the contractions are closer together.

Instead of laying in the dark for ever. I sit up and turn on the tv so I can watch Netflix. As soon as the theme song for Orange is the new black comes on Oliver is up and aware of his surroundings.

"What are we watching babe?" He says groggily.

"I'm watching OITNB, you are sleeping" I say. He sits up looking at me like I'm crazy.

"It's-" he looks at the alarm clock. "3:22 in the morning. How far apart are the contractions?"

"I don't know about 7 minutes apart now." He gives me another look.

"What the hell Ava! We have to get you to the hospital" he Stands up and starts getting his things. When tears fall from my eyes

"I just don't understand-know what I'm doing, what if I'm a terrible mother, or he hates me? It's too much to take in." The cracking, tears running down my face, and the sound of pain in my voice brings Oliver to embrace me and kiss me.

"All we have to worry about is getting little Brody out safely and healthy, then bringing him home. You my Ava are going to be an amazing mother. I mean you made it 9 months you can make it another 18 years" he stands up and puts his hands out for me to grab on. I tried to stand up and I got a contraction.

"Ughhhhh" I moan in pain.

"I'll go get your mom" Oliver says as he walks out the room. When he comes back my mom is fully awake and is packing my things.

"Ok who's ready to go have a baby?" Mom says enthusiastically. I stare at her through pain. U stand up and ease my way out of the house and to the car.

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"Do you want to walk sweet heart or do you want to lay down and let nature take its course?" The nurse asks.

"Ummm I want to try and walk but I just want to sleep" I says sitting on the hospital bed.

"Well we'll see how many centimeters dilated. Then tie it from there" the nurse gives me a smile. "By the way my name is Amanda, and I will be with you every step of the way"

"Thanks Amanda...when do I get the drugs thoughhhhhhhhhHhhhh!" I start to get another contraction.

"Let me get the doctor and we will let you know" she walks out of the room quickly leaving Mom, Oliver, Oliver's mom, and me.

"How you holding up sweet pea?" Oliver's mom says getting up to rub my back. All I can manage to do is take deep breaths and close my eyes.

"Mom I think Ava doesn't want anyone touching her right now....she's all
Sweaty and in pain " Oliver speaks up for me.

"Well maybe not....when I had you I wanted someone to rub my back and well other places" she said with her southern voice getting on my last nerve. "Do you want me to do anything with your hair? It's all sweaty and flat....I can make it look good for the baby" she adds.

"FUCK OFF KARREN!" I yell at her. She looks startled at the way I talked to her.

"Well I never-"