Life

Irresponsible

1 1/2 months later.......

"Babe hurry up we don't want to be late!"

"It's a meeting with the councilor...were fine" I tell Oliver as I walk back and forth in the bathroom doing my hair, makeup, getting dressed, shaving, pumping milk, and brushing my teeth at once.

"Do you want me to help you with anything? I can save your legs for you" he steps in the bathroom.

"No I'm almost done with it...but can you put my hair in a braid? And finish brushing it out for me?" I hand him the brush.

"Ok sure thing babe."

10 minutes later were out of the bathroom and in the living room about to leave. We have a meeting about when or if I am coming back to school.

I put a crying Brody on the carrier.

"Shhh Brody..were going bye-bye" I strap him in and head out the door.

"Do you want to dive and  I sit with him or do you want to sit with him?" Oliver says as he opens the back door for me.

"I'll sit with him I gotta feed him anyways" I put the carrier in he car and then I get in.

"When are you going to feed him?"

"Like until we're 5 minutes away. I don't want him to start crying while we're in there." We pack in the car and drive over to the school.

We're about 5 minutes away and Brody is screaming at the top of his lungs. He won't take a bottle so I decide to take him out of his carrier and breast feed him. We're on back roads anyway so it won't be to bad.

When we get to the school I put a blanket over my shoulder to shield Brody and my boob from everyone. Oliver carry a the carrier and the diaper bag. We make our way through many of our friends staring. As soon as we get to the office immediate staring from the older women. Even some of the men, and the parents.

"Oliver I am having terrible anxiety right now." I whisper to him.

"Why don't you go clean up babe, I'll stay right here. Make sure Oliver is clean, and come back ok?" I nod as he says that. He hands me the diaper bag and I walk to the bathroom. Remind you I'm still feeding Brody.

I walk in the stall and hang up the diaper bag. I unlatch Brody and clean myself off with one hand. Then I walk out and go to the sink. I put down a portable changer to lay him down on and look. I change him and head back to the office. When I get there the guidance counselor and the principle are standing with Oliver.

"Hi Ms.Anderson." Mrs.jackson the principle says to me. I just smile. "Let's go back to my office so we can discuss some things" we all head back to the office and take a seat.

"So I'd like to talk about the elephant in the room...the baby, obviously you want to be with it for safety purposes and I understand-" guidance counselor Rickman starts.

"You need to graduate, we still have your graduation plan and we want you to follow through. I personally think the baby needs to be with you, and I spoke to your teachers they're on board. You can bring your baby to class." Mrs.jackson states.

"Really? I mean there's other moms that come to this school. I don't want to be on their bad side."

"They have their babies with them too. We believe it's the best option for young moms other than dropping out"

"I don't know.....I mean Brody likes to be held all the time and he's still a newborn."

"Well you can start tomorrow or your offer is off the table." Rickman says.

"Ok I'll....think about it. Thanks" I stand up with Brody and walk out. Oliver says his goodbyes and follows behind me with the car seat and the diaper bag.

We get In the car and just sit there.

"I haven't gotten my period since almost a year ago, something is wrong. It's February and I got it April last year right before I got pregnant with him."

"What's that supposed too mean...."

"I thought you used a condom, since I've been off birth control and we've been having sex so early after he was born, and I think I'm pregnant again." I quickly let out.

"Really? You actually think you're pregnant again? Is that even possible?"

"It's extremely possible Oliver! Gosh how could we be so stupid." I run my hands through my hair.

"Let's pick up a pregnancy test, and see. Then go from there." He take my hand and holds it tightly. I nod. I strap in Brody and buckle in myself. I pull out the breast pump and strap it on me.

"Babe I want you to run in there for me please." I say as he starts to drive.

"Ok, need anything else?"

"Pick up some more of those boob pads, and some ointment, I'm feeling really raw right now."

"Ok." We pull into the parking lot and I sit in the car pumping as he runs in. About 5 minutes later he comes out.

"Let's go home and take it then go over to moms for dinner." He hands me the bag.

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I look at the test.

The same two pink lines. I rip another rest open and take it. This ones electronic. I wait a few minutes.

Pregnant

"Oliver...Im not pregnant" I yell  at him. I quickly throw the tests in the boxes and throw them into the bag.

"Are you kidding me...thank goodness.....we can't take on another baby right now" he says just outside the door.

"Yup...definitely not ready." I flush the toilet and was my hands I grab the bag and take it down stairs to out in the garbage.

I know what your thinking why didn't I tell him I'm pregnant? Well I don't want to be pregnant, I'm getting an abortion. I need to do this its the best option right now. And I think I can go through with it this time. After seeing what pregnancy does to my body I don't want to be pregnant again.

"Ready to go to dinner? My mom hasn't seen the baby for about two weeks"

"Cool my dad hasn't seen the baby since he was born. And to all honesty I don't want your mom around my son."

"Why don't you want her around Brody?"

"I've sat here and watched her with your neice a and nephews. She spanks them and is constantly yelling at people for no reason, she's crazy."

"It's because she believes in spanking and you don't"

"No that's not the reason! Don't bring beliefs into this, just go to your moms house sleep there tonight I need to think ok, I love you...see ya" I kiss his cheek and walk up stairs.

I don't know how I'm pregnant but tomorrow after school I'm going to get this abortion.