~Jom one shots~ The Wanted slash. Tom x Jay

Thinking

Thinking of stopping the Tomax & Choices fic & wrapping up the Jom one shots after I finish the one I'm working on right now. I just. I should let go. Of them. And well... a certain someone. I think I'm... She has a boyfriend and I need to move the hell on. If anyone finds out I just. I'm so confused. If my parents or anyone for that matter find out I like a girl they'd. Honestly I don't know what they'd do. I don't kno what I'd do. I was at the beach the other day and the hypnotic almost seductive waves offered me such peace that all I wanted to do was wade into it. Towards the horizon leaving my fucked up life behind. Leaving her. & leaving the rest of the world that doesn't give a fuck. Leaving The Wanted. Hahaa yh. They always managed to get me outta my All Time Low... until now that is. I will always love them. Tom's tantrums & his obnoxious laugh. Max's kindness showing even in his grey eyes. Jay's innocence & RUDE comments, his red red curls togethr w/ piercing blue eyes contrasting his almost vampire skin then therez Siva being so...siva and of course baby Nath's sarcasm. Then therex 1D. Louis's comforting eyes & Harry's bright brilliant and innocent smile gets me everytime. Niall's accent made me laugh together w/ Liam's adorable cluelessness & Zayn's "Whashappenin?"s.    But life sux and then you die. I'm radio active. Basically toxic and destructive to everyone including myself.