HS: "Am I still going to be a father?" (2018)

17

(2 days later)

"So boys, I now want to talk to you about a more serious subject." Johnathan looks at the boys with a serious face and the camera focuses on Harry who keeps a straight face, not smiling but not sad either. A poker face, showing that he knows what is coming. "This past Saturday the 18th you were having your last concert at the O2 and, about half-way through, Harry" Looking at Harry "you went off stage and never went back on. And a bit later all of you boys" Looking at the boys "left as well. And then it was announced that the concert had been cancelled... Do you want to tell us what happened?"

All the boys look at Harry who awkwardly smiles and takes a deep breath. He knew this day would come, and they had this interview, at The Johnathan Ross Show, scheduled for months now, so this was it. "Yeah, hum... My... My girlfriend, who was in the audience, wasn't feeling very well and..."  I'm taking a deep breath. I can tell he is super nervous about it and I am too. I'm backstage with some of the crew watching the interview on the screen as it happens. "...and I had a bad feeling about it, so I left the stage to hum... To try and find out what had happened." Harry says slowly and looking at Johnathan who nods. The boys are mainly looking down, sometimes looking at Harry and at Johnathan.

"I'm sorry but- for everyone who isn't up to date, your girlfriend, Mariana, was pregnant, correct?"

"Yeah..." Harry pauses and swallows hard "She was." he nods and looks down for an instant.

"And how far along was she?" Johnathan continues.

"She was 6 months pregnant." Harry answers assertively and with a straight face. I shiver and swallow hard trying to control myself from all the emotions that are invading me. Lou grabs my hand and gently rubs it.

"And do you want to tell us what happened?"

"Hum..." Harry clears his throat and breathes in "There was a complication in the pregnancy and she had to have emergency surgery and hum..." He swallows hard once again. "The baby... didn't make it." He finally says it and gives out a small smile and looks down at is lap. The camera, which was focused on him while he talked, now showed the whole couch, and Niall had his hand on Harry's leg. It then showed the audience, and some people cleaning off tears with a tissue.

"I'm very sorry to hear that, Harry. And thank you for talking about it." Johnathan tells Harry who nods and smiles.

"Hum..." He sits up straight and clears his throat "I want to take this opportunity to thank everyone for their support lately." Harry says now looking at the audience and at the camera "The support has been incredible, from fans and people in general who don't owe us anything yet they have been there for us. And we really appreciate it from the bottom of our hearts. Thank you." he says joining his hands together and bringing them to his chest. Everyone in the audience claps, Johnathan and the boys do too.

"Well, we are now going for a little break and after the break we will be back with One Direction who are going to perform a song from their last album, Made In The A.M!"

The boys come backstage for the 15 minutes break. As they come inside the room we were in, Harry comes to me and we hug.

A long and tight hug.

Burying my head in his chest, I feel like crying from all the emotions that are overwhelming me, and he notices it. He whispers near my ear: "Not here. C'mon, come with me." Still with my head nuzzled in his chest and his arm around my back and shoulders we start walking. I can't see anything because of my position but I can feel that everyone in the room is looking at us. He guides me through a few doors and then stops. I loosen the grip and he puts his hands on my cheeks and holds me at arms length.