14 Days [Ciel Phantomhive x Reader]

Day 11

You sleep an awful lot these days.

In fact, Ciel doesn't remember a day that you greeted him in the morning. You were constantly tired and so weak and the 'medicine' given to you only seemed to make you worst, your body wasn't taken to it and you suffered each time the doctor forced you to have it. Your body had erupted in rushes, most likely from the bed, but from something else too. Your hair was thinning and even though you slept and slept and slept, permanent dark circles surrounded your eyes. 

Ciel was becoming increasingly worried, he abandoned his work and even requests from the queen went unnoticed. Sebastian said your time is coming up, that he can almost taste how weak your soul has become. Ciel won't listen, of course. Why would he? It was far too painful so he continued to live in a world where you would get better. Where you would live and kiss him until he had fogotten all about these horrible days and you would become his wife- his permanent lover.

But fate was sick, fate was cruel, fate was harmful and abusive and horrid.

"Ciel..." you breath, your voice croaky and so weak, "It.. hurts..."

"Shh... Shh..." the boy cooed, climbing beneath the sheets beside your weakened state and wrapping his arms around you, "I cant breathe."

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"I can't breathe, I can't think, I can only hear my stupid heart beat!" You suddenly snapped, sitting up and holding your hand to your chest, "That's all I can hear Ciel, it haunts me, lulls me to sleep and pulls me right back out of it! It's all I can hear! And it gets weaker and weaker everyday as if it likes to remind me how this will all end!" Your eyes wild, your teeth clenched.

Ciel is unsure of how to handle this situation so he simply listen.

You pull at your hair, sobs and his and growl and cry and whimper. "It's so weak. I'm so weak. I don't want to die Ciel!" You thrust your fists against the bed, he charges at you, holds you close and tries to console you, but it's impossible. "It hurts, Ciel. It hurts so much."

He tries to hush you but you are beside yourself. 

"You're not going to die." He soothes.

"You're not going to die."

Ciel said those words over and over again but even he doubted the truth.