14 Days [Ciel Phantomhive x Reader]

[Secret Ending] Day 112

Dear (Y/N).

It has been 112 days since you left me. 112 days without your warmth, without your lips. 

It has not been easy. In fact, never in my life do I believe that I have faced something so painful. My heart is constantly yearning for you, although the disgusting realisation that it will never receive your love again is kiling me.

I want you to be here again, although I bet that you know that already, after all, I mention it almost each and every day, right? 

Since your passing, the world seems colder, duller.

I feel so numb, I cannot fathom this world without you, it is much to hard waking up each morning.

I have lost everything now.

With you at my side I felt stronger, I felt like  a man with the ability to look after you.

But now, once more, I am thirteen years old child who failed miserably to protect the people he loved most in the world.

I am weak again, and what's more, I am alone again.

You never really get used to the feeling, once upon a time I greet loneliness like an old friend, but these days he is nothing but a pesky demon, whispering in my ear.

I have to go now, I am running out of space to write and Sebastian and I are travelling up to the valley to refresh the roses on your grave.

You always like the outdoors, so I made sure to place you in a world surrounded by colour and life.

I love you (Y/N).

I bet that you dwell above the clouds, and whilst I wish that I could say that when my time comes, that I would meet you there but it seems that the only place that will take me is engulfed with flames and pain.

I can't help but wonder what would have happen if I met you before Sebastian, perhaps then I could be with you again.

I cannot help but think of all the 'what if's' but I ​​​​​​​shall save such a thing for another day.

Goodbye my love.

Ciel Phantomhive.