Finding Who I Was Meant To Be

Chapter 11

Nicole's PoV




I woke up early in the morning and immediately ran to the bathroom, throwing up the contents of my stomach. It had been a month since me had sex on our anniversary and now that I'm getting 'morning sickness', I think it's time for me to take a pregnancy test. Will came to the bathroom and stood in the doorway, obviously still tired. "Morning sickness?" He asked, his voice husky. I nodded. He smiled and was suddenly energized. "I'll go pick up a pregnancy test at one of the 24-hour pharmacies." He yells, as he goes to throw on a sweatshirt and some shoes. "I'm so excited! I'm going to be a father!"




I giggled as Will ran past the bathroom. "Will! You forgot pants." I called out after him. He chuckled and turned back around, heading to our room before throwing pants on. He turned back around and headed out the door. As Will was out, I called my mom. I hadn't talked to her in forever. I dialed her number and sat on the toilet lid as I waited for her to pick up. "Nicole?! How have you been baby? I missed you! How is Will?" I smiled as she answered. "I missed you too mommy. Me and Will have been good." There was a brief pause on her line. "What happened? There's something wrong. You never call me mommy." I bit my lip before responding.




"Remember when I was with James?" I asked. James was my boyfriend before Michael. He was the only nice ex I had, the reason we didn't last was because he got me pregnant. We were only nineteen at the time and he wasn't ready for being a father. But the big problem wasn't that he left. When I discovered

I was pregnant, I was pretty happy. Sure I was a bit upset that I wasn't older, or that the dad wasn't around, but I had a baby and I was ready to be a mother. Sadly, I had had a miscarriage. I was devastated. "Yeah I remember honey, why?" I bit my lip trying to not cry. "I'm pregnant again. I'm scared mommy. I'm scared I'm going to miscarriage again." I said breaking down in tears. My mom took a breath. "I wish I could be there for you but you I'm stuck in Texas. Tell Will everything, he'll help you through it. Now I have to go, but I promise to call and check up on you as things go along." I nodded, forgetting momentarily that she can't see me. "Alright mommy." I said before hanging up.




I sank down against the tub and began crying tears that I hadn't cried since the miscarriage. I remember hearing that I had lost my baby. I had already picked out a name for her, Evalyn Michelle Masterly, I just knew she would be a girl. But two months into the pregnancy, she died. I remember the pain that had come with it as well, I thought it was the normal stomach pains that I got with the morning sickness. But since I didn't tell my doctor, Evalyn died.




Will found me on the floor of the bathroom, bawling my eyes out. "Nicole? Nicole! What's wrong baby?" He asked, sitting down next to me and taking me into his arms. "I'm scared Will. Last time I was pregnant, I miscarried." I said, sobbing into his chest. "It hurt, emotionally and physically. I'm afraid it's going to happen again." Will looked at me completely shocked. "You were pregnant?! When?" I sniffled. "When I was nineteen, James left because of it."




Will held me close into his arms. "It's going to be okay baby. We'll go to the doctors all the time, always call him when we're unsure of something and make sure that you take a ton of vitamins. We will not lose our baby." He murmured, rubbing my back to calm me down. I wiped the tears out of my eyes and smiled. "Okay, I think I'm ready to take this test." Will smiled and helped me up off the ground. "I got you the most expensive one." He said handing me the test. I pecked his cheek. "Thank you, now go so I can pee." I said pushing him out the bathroom and closing the door in his face.




Five minutes later, we were both pacing up and down the hallway as we waited for the test results. "Is it ready yet?" Will asked for thirtieth time this minute. I nodded for the first time as my alarm went off. "Yes. I'm scared though, can you read it?" I asked. Will headed into the bathroon to read the test. "Yes!" He yelled out, bounding out of the bathroom to come pick me up and spin me around. "I'm pregnant?" I asked as Will set me down. He nodded. "We're going to be parents!"