Imagine Me

Awoken

Welllll???? What you think?
This is the last chapter? I know it was short but I don't know where else to go without Manny .. Last chapter yay!!

Poppy

***Its been two months since Manny died***

I'm about 7 month and I'm having a girl, I still don't know what to name her .I'm trying to find a name that goes with Manny but I've yet to come up with one.. I had the baby shower even though I didn't want to go my aunt and Manny's mom made me .(if you don't come we going to kick your ass when you give birth and we'll make sure of it! Poppy) they said to me and the look in their eyes made me almost pooped my pants. So yeah I went .. It was beautiful I did have fun even if I hate to admit it but I did. We played baby shower games ate a lot of food and then I opened up all my gifts.

I didn't like the way I looked, even though people would say I looked stunning ,gorgeous. Sometimes even get looks like we she's ugly or fat or pity. Maybe its all in my head? I don't know anymore , I'm not myself I've become a different person, closed off to the world ,Even to my old ""sold called friends"".I just hate everyone and everything. I still talk to Manny like if he's there, seriously I have I lost my mind I'm crazy, Loco in the head hahaa..

Well it's been tough going to the doctor's appointment by myself without Manny by my side guiding me through it. When I found out I was having a girl I cried and cried. I had to even see a counselor at my school cause of my depression even though I did not say much it kind of helped me through this hard time. it sucks that I had to spend My 18th birthday alone in my room. My aunt came with a cake and Manny's mom Miranda by her by her side singing Happy birthday to me and again I cried like a fuckking baby. Yes I cry a lot .

The night after My birthday I dreamt of Manny .He telling me that he's ok and that he's happy that I'm having a girl ,we talked about everything how he's not in pain anymore.we even played game's like we used to. He came up to me and hugged so tight that it felt like it was real and not a dream, But I even know I'm that crazy to think it was real.I got lost in the moment of bliss when he kissed he even smelled the same, looked the same, he didn't look sick ..

"I miss you so much Manny"

"I know you do my love, I'm sorry for making you cry every night, I love you" he said looking in my eye's.

"But why did this have to happen to you?" I asked ,Not really expecting an answer

"I don't know why my poppy cocks" he laughed in my ear the most beautiful sound I've ever heard and miss so much

"Always making jokes" I giggled in his chest

"Well just remember we'll see each other very soon and when that day comes I'll be waiting with my arms wide open for you to run into them.. I love you baby but I have to go now I'll see you soon just stay strong" the way he said that to me sounded kind of scary ,He started to fade away then he was gone.

"Manny please don't leave me again!" I called out to him but it was too late he was already gone. Beep beep beep my phone went off next to my ear Crap I jumped off my bed so fast I thought I was going to land on my face but instead I landed on my ass ..Oche that hurt I grunted out .I got up and walked to the bathroom to take a shower after. I took a long hot shower I went to the kitchen where my aunt Haiti and Miranda's was sitting having their coffee.. They've been hanging out a lot and it just makes me sick that I have to look at Miranda cause all I see is Manny face ,Wow I never knew how much he looked like his mother until he died.

I'm still getting those weird headaches, that it feels like deja vu everyday. My head is always pounding like I got hit by a bat ,My vision goes blurry sometimes .I don't know if it's because of the pregnancy or it's because I'm not eating as much, either way it's just weird and a pain in the ass and I don't like it very much. After that dream with Manny I woke up to my head feeling like its going to blow up into a million pieces,worst then before.