Imagine Me

Overboard

(Mannys p.o.v.)

After class I went to meet up with Poppy. I still feel like shit ..I was just hiding it good I guess ..

MANNY! OVER HERE!

I heard Poppy yell

Wow I'm like two feet away from you and yelling like I'm miles away .I said to Poppy .laughing my Ass off ..

"I didn't yell that loud " she said laughing and hugging me

Mmmm just smelling her make me feel like I'm flouting on a cloud ..She smells like vanilla . I could just stand here all day hugging her and smelling her sweet smell..

I put my arm around her neck and walked out of the school ..

So is your room that much of a mess that your willing to give me a kiss in order to help you ? I asked smiling down at her .

"Well not really . But I know a kiss will make you feel better cause I know your not feeling well ..but I really do need your help with homework..she said

Ok now I'm starting to think she likes me or is it just out of pity? Oh well fuck it I don't care just as long as I get to feel her soft lips on mine ..

So how was your classes ? I asked her while playing with her hair .

She looked up at me biting on her bottom lip.God what I would do to bite on those lips .I thought to myself

"It was ok but the last class was weird ..the teacher is making us write some letters to some kids in England , I think it will be cool to have someone to talk to when I'm feeling down and out "..

Wait ,so what your telling me is that you don't have anyone to talk to when you "down" ..what the fuck Poppy? What the hell you think I'm here for ? Just to look at ?

I know I'm being a Dick to her right know but I don't care ..that shit hurts me , like she can't confide in me ..

"Manny its not even like that .you know what I mean " she said to me with hurt on her face and tears in her eyes.

Look Poppy I don't care if you make a new friend but to say what you said hurts , like you can't talk to me ..I'm your best friend and its like you don't even trust me ,that you can't even tell me how you feel anymore . I yelled at her

"Im sorry Manny I didn't mean to say it like that .you know I love you with all my heart .you know everything about me , I feel like I'm losing you and I just need someone to talk to when your gone"

SO NOW I'M BASICALLY DEAD TO YOU ?! THAT'S HOW YOU FUCKING FEEL NOW ?! YOU KNOW WHAT JUST ACT LIKE I'M DEAD AND DON'T EVER CALL ME AGAIN .

Then I walked away ..God I don't know what got into me but I'm so Goddamn mad right now , I could kill someone!

The look on Poppy face when I got so mad was so hard to look at ..I wanted to hug her and tell her I'm so sorry for going crazy on her like that ,but I couldn't stop myself from being so mad.. shit I think I fucked up big time ..ugh I'm so fucking mad !

She's my best friend and it sucks that she doesn't even feel like I'm going to make it, as if cancer already killed me ..

On my way home I stopped at the bar my big sister works at , they all knew me so I didn't need my I.D

I went to the bar and asked for two shots of jack .and two more and two more..

Fuck I'm wasted . But it feels so damn good to just drink the pain away ..

the whole time I was getting drunk I felt my phone vibrate in my pocket..I didn't even bother to check it ..

After the bar I took a cab home , I didn't know what time it was .

I felt free and sick at the same time .

I went home to an empty house .My mom left me a note

(Note)

Hey baby I'll be home soon I have to stay at work for a double..ill be home at 11 .I love you , mom

I put the note down . went up stairs to take a bath so I can sober up before she gets here, witch will be in 2 hours ..

I went to my room to get boxer's and a tee .

I took my phone out my pocket ..I haven't checked it the whole time I was at the bar .I had 10 missed calls and 5 text all from Poppy

Shit I bet she hates me right know ..I'll read the text later .Right now I'm not in the mood , and not in a good sate of mind to talk to her .

I don't even know why I'm so mad at her.

A/N hope you like comment and vote please thanks xoxo Liz