The Eleanor Diaries

Chapter 5. Numb

"I've become so numb, I can't feel you there. I've become so tired, so much more aware." -Linkin Park "Numb."

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That next morning, I sat at the kitchen table, completely broken and empty.

I faintly heard the chatter of my mom, Alan, and Bailee. All having a normal conversation. All living their lives.

"Eleanor!" My mom snapped.

I zoned out, apparently. I looked at her questioningly.

She gave me a weird look. "I've been yelling at you for quite a while." she says.

"Oh, um, sorry." I said. Going back to ignoring them.

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I get to school and it's the same daily routine. Except this time, my crush, Jake joins in on the bullying.

That hurt more than anything. Anyone in that school could call my names or hurt me, whatever. But when the only guy I've ever had genuine feelings for calls me names. That's what hurts.

I felt a few traitor tears fall, which thankfully they don't notice.

Eventually they got lost in a conversation about who knows what. But they finally left me alone. At least for awhile.

I spotted Marcie, and her two best friends, Nadia and Carly.

I got up and joined them, so maybe I won't get bothered.

Their eyes wander to see who joined them. When they realize it's me, they give me a friendly smile.

"Hey, El!" They greeted happily.

I gave them a fake smile. Nadia, who sat on the left of me, nudged me. "So, how's life, El?" she said.

"Fine. How are you, Dia?" I asked.

"Great! I'm actually dating someone now." she declares.

"Really?" I ask, and glance at Carly and Marcie, who had knowing smirks.

"What about you two?" I asked.

"Single as a Pringle." both girls said at the same time, then burst out laughing.

I smirked. Then Nadia looked at me. "And you?"

I looked behind me at the idiot who I called my crush for two years. "Extremely single." I answered.