"Addison, will you please just come out?"
"No! Go away!"
It's been like this for the past three hours.
It's been three days since our argument.
Two days until the ball.
I've been leaving food at Addie's door, and before she will open it to get it, I have to be all the way downstairs.
She won't even look at me.
Honestly, I wouldn't want to look at me either.
I realize what I said wasn't in the best of taste.
She really has every right to hate me.
I've debated..apologizing.
It's hard for me to even think about, because of him.
My father isn't really around anymore.
But he's still got so much hold on me.
Once someone mentally scars you, it's kinda hard to heal from that.
Even for someone like me.
Most other vampires I know have.. Issues.
Living for a long time is, damaging.
It's hard to grow old and see all of your loved ones die around you.
Loved ones.. Dying..
Does Addie know about the ceremony?
Probably not. I've never really talked about it.
We haven't really talked at all about the marriage thing except for during that fight.
So it's safe to say she has no idea that I have to turn her immortal the day of our wedding.
Oh man. That's going to be a fun conversation.
"Addison, please come out. We need to talk."
I say with my back against her door.
"Hmm, how about no."
She says sassily.
I groan loudly and sink to sit on the floor.
Why is this so hard.
I'm an immortal creature of sin and darkness, and I can't apologize for being an ass to the girl I love.
We have a year until we are supposed to wed.
We can heal in that time right?
"I'm an idiot." I say out loud without really thinking.
"You sure have got that right!" Says Addie from the other side of the door.
"Yes, mock me. Go ahead, if it makes you feel better. Bring on the verbal abuse. You'd be surprised by how much I can take. Ask my father."
My head shoots up in realization of what I just said.
"Please disregard that last statement Addison. I did not mean to say anything of the sort in front of you."
She chuckles.
A wonderful noise I haven't heard recently.
"Well, even if you did throw your wall back up at me, it's good to know you can lower it."
I'm rendered speechless.
I'm surprised she caught on that quickly.
"Addison, I-"
"I know. You don't want to tell me anything about your personal life. But from that statement I can gather your dads kinda an asshole, and that's probably why you are an asshole now."
"Language!"
"Yeah yeah, whatever. Hey, I have a question."
"Yes?" I say, turning around so I'm now sitting cross legged in front of her shut door.
There's a moment of silence before she speaks.
"Did you really mean what you said? That you don't care about me?"
I sigh.
That's a loaded question.
Of course I care for her. But caring is weakness. Someone could exploit that weakness.
I shouldn't tell her I care. What if she decides to start using that to her advantage?
But then again, if I tell her. Maybe she will forgive me.
And I won't have to actually say "I'm sorry"
"No, Addison. I didn't really mean that." I feel my stomach knot up. Showing emotions isn't my strong suit. But I've got to do this, for Addie.
"I.. Care about you. I really do. I want you to know that I... Only said what I did out of anger. You seeing someone else just- I just went crazy. I can't- I'm not good at showing how I really feel. I'm not good at showing emotions, Or feelings, Or anything really. I want you to know that I really lo-... I'm really... Damnit! Addie-"
She swings open the door.
And she's laughing. Great.
"F-Felix.." She stutters out while laughing.
"I understand what you are trying to say.. I think. I get that you care for my safety but you just can't lock me up forever. I need room to spread my wings." She says, after stopping laughing.
"Addison." I say as I stand up.
"You can't be trusted out of this house because of your actions. It's not just about keeping you safe. It's about keeping you.. Mine. And keeping you pure."
"Pure?" She asks, very confused.
I sigh. "Come to the living room Addie. We need to talk."
"Okay." She says as she follows me down the hall.
