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12//amorous regrets

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i step into jayla's house.

"i'm so happy you could come.." she says, seductively.

my hormones are out of control right now.

"come here," i whisper while smashing my lips onto hers.

"wanna take this to the bedroom?" she suggests.

"of course," i whisper while kissing her neck.

she lays her back down on the bed while we continue the everlasting kiss.

however, at that moment i had an epiphany.

this did not feel right

why am i kissing this random girl?

what the hell just happened?

i didn't even notice that she was slowly taking off my pants before i quickly stood up.

zipping my jeans, i turn to jayla.

"i need to go. don't try to contact me." i snap before walking out.

"but cameron! i love you!" i faintly hear on my way out.

of course, some random girl from the club totally loves me.

i did something stupid. dumb. childish.

something i would have done if i was still a teenager.

but i'm 21 for goodness sakes. how could i be so dumb, and thoughtless?

what have i turned into?

i treated maeve so badly...

blew her off.

led her on.

crushed her heart.

destroyed her hopes.

she's not just some fan to me.

at least not anymore.

she's the girl that made me realize,

the kind of person i've become.

a selfish, heartbreaking mess.

and because of my foolish actions,

i've lost my only chance.