Take My Life[Ereri/ErenxLevi]

Take My Haven

Light was coming into sight. It's so warm, so comforting. Is this what it feels like to cross over? Have I finally succeeded in something in my life, or should I say death?

It was hard to make out the scenery in the beginning, but the blur was ephemeral. As the image became more vivid there were silhouettes that seemed to hover over me. I recognized the figures to be my parents, sister, and Armin. They had looks of relief plastered on their faces. I glanced around the room and noticed I was laying rest in a hospital.

"Why?" The word left my mouth in a hushed tone. My mother leaned in closer towards me.

"Levi hun, what was that?"

"Why am I here?" I made sure that my question was audible this time.

"Why are you here? Why did you try to end your life is a better question, don't you think? If it weren't for your sister coming home and finding you before it was too late, you would have been gone. Do you not realize how much that would hurt us?" I couldn't focus on what my mom was saying after pointing out something very important. My anger was directed towards a specific person in that room. The person who made me fail what I was trying to accomplish, Mikasa.

"You fucking bitch." My cold, dead eyes hers. If only looks could kill.

"Levi, don't speak to your sister like that." My father chimed in.

"No, she deserves it." I looked at Mikasa once more. "She deserves every single bit of it. Why did you have to "save" me? Why did you have to come home early? Why couldn't you have fucked your girlfriend and stayed at her house longer? Why did you take the one thing that I really wanted away from me? Why did you take my safe haven? Why, tell my why Mikasa?!" She stayed surprising calm and turned to speak with the remaining guest in the room.

"Mom, dad, Armin would you give us a minute alone please?" Everyone stared at eachother for a minute but they eventually left. Once the door shut everything went to hell. "What's the matter with you, Levi?! Why would you do something like this? Was it to get back at me for ignoring you these past few days?"

"Not everything is about you, Mikasa." I retorted

"And everything's not about you either, but you sure try to make it that way. But suicide, really? Was that the only way? If I knew that you really were going to go this far I would have baker acted you like I was thinking about." I couldn't believe what just came out of her mouth.

"You were going to baker act me! How dare you! That kind of shit gets put on your permanent record."

"Some things need to be put on record."

"That heartless, and that's coming from me. What's your problem with me frequently?"

"I don't like what you're turning into." What does that even mean.

"Like it or not this is me. So if you don't like the way I'm acting then you simply just don't like me."

"You're right, I don't. I love and care about you but the truth is I can stand you most of the time. You constantly lash out at people that don't deserve your crap. You push your friends and family away when all we want is to help you. But what I can't stand even more is the person you've become is the person that turned you into this. This empty shell that can't even see the point in living anymore. He has taken everything from you. You happiness, your freedom, your judgment, your reason for living, and now he has almost taken your life. This has gone way too far. I should've put an end to this from the moment that it started, but now it gonna end right now. I'll make sure of that one thing." She turned away from me and headed towards the door.

"Mikasa wait!" It was too late, she had already left. My parents entered the room once more. "Where's Mikasa?"

"She said something about heading over to the school." My father answered.

"School?"

"Yes school, it going on right now. You've been out for more than 24 hours. Mikasa and Armin insisted that they would miss today and make sure that you were all right." I tried to sit up but a sharp pain in my lower abdomen caused me to return to my previous position. "Aw honey, don't try to move so soon." My mother's tried to warn me.

"Why am I in so much pain?" I really don't know what's going on with my body.

"Well you did just come out of surgery a not some time ago."

"Surgery?"

"Yes, the pill did such significant damage that you had to undergo an operation. So you won't be going to school for a while. Not that I was going to let you go anyway. Not until we talk about why you did this?" She stated

"Oh" was the only thing I could get myself to say.

"Are things going on at school? Are classes to hard on you? Is someone bothering you? I've noticed that you there has been a drastic change in your personality these past gourmet years. I ignorantly chucked it off as you just going through those rebellious teenage years. But I realize that something bigger is going on. And you've made it fairly clear now that this can't go on ignored any longer. So please just tell us what has happened to you." I stayed quiet which cause my mother to speak for a second time. "Levi, we are you parents. We care about you so much and we would just die if you were to do anything like this again. Just let us help you."

"I can't" It came out like a whimper.

"Fine, you can talk to us about this. That's why you're starting therapy tomorrow." My father said

"What?!"

"That's right, the Doctor will be making a personal visit tomorrow in this room. He's one of the best psychiatrist in the state."

"But therapy is for people that are mentally unstable!"

"First of all Levi, it's not. You can be perfectly fine and go to therapy. And even if your assumption about therapy was true I would think that you would fall in that category. I mean just look where we are right now. " I took a look around and thought back on all the events that brought me to this very moment. "Exactly, you're starting tomorrow case closed."

Before I could argue even more a nurse walked into the room. "Excuse me, but the doctor would like me to run an ultrasound to assess the damage to Levi's intestines. I'm going to have to roll him into a different but it shouldn't take long to bring him back here."

"That's fine" my mother quickly dismissed. The nurse started to wheel my bed out of the room and to the testing room.

'Look at where you are right now. Why the hell is my life so messed up? Why does everything have to be taken from me?'