Take My Life[Ereri/ErenxLevi]

Take My Fight

That party just made my reputation crumble. I've gotten nothing but crap from everyone that has passed me by in the halls. Classic case of monkey see monkey do. Every since they saw my weak display that night they somehow drilled in their heads the impression I'm simply someone that can be pushed around. That there are not consequences to it. I really don't have the energy or motivation to deal with that right now.

I sat at my stool in front of my Grand Piano, contemplating whether or not I should leave for school today. My fingers delicately maneuvered around the keys. Each note hit washed away a piece of validity, bringing me closer to fantasy. I loved entering the state of the unconscious mind. Leaving all worries and inhabitants behind. Just basking in the beauty of the Symphony being created by myself. Each sound working together in perfect harmony.

"Levi hun" I was awoken from my trance by something even more angelic than my own playing, my mother's voice. "As much as I absolutely adore hearing my little musical prodigy of a son play the instrument he's loved since he was three, you still have to go to school. Mikasa is waiting outside in the car for you."

"I'll head out there right now." I kept my head down, refusing to look at her. I didn't want her to see the dreaded look on my face while I was on my way to school.

"Levi, are you alright? You've seemed a bit down lately. Did you and Eren have a fight?" Oh yeah, you could say that. After all these years I never had the heart to tell her that I lost my best friend. I couldn't even think about telling to her that he's been ruining my life since Freshman year.

She knows that something is wrong. She's known it for the longest time, how could she not? Her happy, bubbly son has been reduced to an emotionless hard ass that never smiles. I tried to chuck it off as the stress of High School, it wasn't a complete lie then. I know that my mother never bought it but after a while she just excepted that I wasn't going to give her the real reason. "I'm fine mom, just stress about my classes."

"Mmh ok, off to school then." She didn't believe me, I can see it in her eyes. I grabbed my backpack and headed for the door. "Levi, wait!"

"Yes" I stayed facing the door.

"I love you."

"Yeah" I walked out and went toward Mikasa's car. 'I love you.' Three words that I have trouble saying to anyone, even my own mother. The moment I step foot into my sister car she could sense my distress. I swear she's like a fucking wolf.

"What's wrong?" She started to pull out of the driveway and continued on the route to school.

"Can I just have one minute before you start interrogating me?" Of course she wouldn't comply.

"You were playing the piano just now." Yeah, what about it?

"And your point is?"

"I called your name a few times but you couldn't hear me."

"I don't see what your getting at."

"You only get like that with your music when you want to escape your thoughts. You're thinking about things Levi. Bad things and I'm getting worried." Why does she always have to overanalyze everything.

"Can you stop micromanaging me all the time? It's getting really annoying, Mikasa."

"You're not in a good mind set right now. With everything that's been happening I'm scared that you'll end your-"

"Your scared that'll I'll end my what? Don't even think about finishing that sentence."

"I'm just being a sister that's worried about her brother."

"No, your being a pest that doesn't know how to mind her own business."
I immediately regretted what I said the moment it came out.

"Levi" She looked absolutely heartbroken.

"Mikasa, I didn't mean-" I was cut of by her abruptly pulling the car over to the side of the road.

"Get out"

"Excuse me?"

"I said to get out of my car. You can walk the rest of the way to school." I stared at her for a moment. I was shocked but I can't really say that I was surprised. I've been a jerk to her for so long I was wondering when she would finally snap.

"Okay" The moment I stepped out from the car she drove off, not even sparing a second glance at me.

Well this is just great. Dare I ask the forbidden questions that seems to only bring more dread and despair? Can things get any worse?

The sky darkened, clouds covering the entire surface, leaving no silver lining in sight. Rain, seriously? Why did I have to open my mouth?

X

I barely made it to school on time, and now I'm drenched. I will never understand how the weather could change from bright and sunny to straight up piss raining at the drop of a hat. I shoved my way through the entrance doors and all eyes were on me.

"Check it out, the school's loser decided to show up!"

"Why is he even here?"

"No one wants him at this school."

"He's just a waste of space."

Each insult cut further and further, leaving my heart covered in lacerations. I don't even know a single one of these people, so why do their words cause so much damage. It shouldn't hurt this much. Is this what it feels like to have everyone turn against you?

"Hey Levi, why don't you just stay home and rot?"

"Shut up you miserable piece of shit." I fired back at the unknown male.

"Woah, it talks huh? Too bad no one wants to hear your voice. You're entire existence is one big mistake."

"Oh, I'm the mistake? Your birth certificate was a apology letter from the condom factor."

"Why are you even fighting back? You didn't put up a fight when it was Eren. You're no man so why don't you stop trying to pass off as one?"

"You're right, I'll never be half the man that your mother is." This is the only way I could fight, how pathetic.

X

Day after day this went on. It went on till the point that I had enough, I finally snapped. I lost everything, my sister, my reputation, my fight, my sanity, I lost Eren. All of it slipped through the slots of my fingers.

I came to a completely empty home. My mother and father were currently at work. Mikasa went over to her girlfriend's house as soon as classes ended. I dragged myself up to my room, locking the door behind me as I thought about the unthinkable.

I guess Mikasa was right. She was right to worry. Right about being in the wrong mindset. Right about it coming to this point. Right about what I'm going to do in my own very room.

I'm done

I'm done with everything.

I've given up, you win.

Is this what you wanted, Eren? Congrats on winning your little game. I'm must say that I'm impressed, you finally broke me. I'm glad that you can be happy now. Happy with what you've done to me.

'I got what I deserved.' Is that what you would say?

Huh Eren?