Take My Life[Ereri/ErenxLevi]

Take My Mind

I had never experienced true paralysis until this current moment. There have been instances of forced immobilization due to the works of the man that was now pressing his lips up against mine, and his clique. Times where my movement has been restricted manually while I was embarrassed with plenty of spectators there to bask in my humiliation. But this was a different feeling entirely. The source of my incapacity was completely internal. No outside power was present to physically attack my body. The only thing that was leaving me defenseless was myself, more specifically my mind. It was what cut off the nerve impulses reaching my limbs. The icy sensation shooting through the majority of my body, contradicted yet complimented by the overbearing heat in my chest from the ever rapid beating of my heart was all my own doing, whether it be subconscious or not.

What in the actual hell was going on? The person that has hated me for almost four years, the one that has brought nothing but pain and misery every time we, unfortunately, wound up in the same area. The being that I finally learned to despise and disregard of the fledgling fantasy of them returning to the self that I had grown accustomed to as a child, he was now kissing me.

I'd be lying if I said a small part of me didn't want to let my eyes flutter closed and enjoy this moment. This situation brought out a terrifying realization, no matter what Eren does and how much I can hate him with every fiber of my being, I will always carry a slimmer of feeling for this boy. And my feelings are only for what exactly I stated, the boy. Not the man that is in my presence, but the boy I had grown to love. The boy who was swallowed by this entity that was unrecognizable in my eyes. I will forever have a tenderness for that sweet and bright eyed kid, maybe that's the reason that I haven't moved in what was only a few seconds but felt like hours. His kiss brought back memories that shook me to my core, both endearing and agonizing reminiscence. However, the unpleasant thoughts quickly outshined the hope of pleasing ones entering the center stage of my mind. No, instead they were acting as the background dancers to the dread in my life. Dread caused by Eren Jaeger. The mere musing of his name allowed me to gather the strength needed to put our little "moment" to an end.

I lifted my once limp arms and placed them firmly on his chest. I hadn't even given him the time to react to the slight change in position before I pushed against him with an amount of force that I wasn't even aware that I had. Eren was violently thrown back, his shoulders hitting the door that he was blocking not too long ago, eyes widening in what looked to be like pain. He opened his mouth in an attempt to speak but I quickly cut him off.

"What the actual fuck Jaeger?!" I said, venom clearly lacing every word.

"Levi, I-", was all that could escape before I interrupted him once more.

"NO! Shut the everliving fuck up! You don't get to speak." To any outsider, I might be perceived to be overreacting, but I was well within my rights to explode the way I currently was doing. After all the shit he's pulled, he has the audacity to kiss me. I bet it's for shits and giggles anyway. Just another way to manipulate me for their amusement. They wanted to see how much of a Faggerman I truly was. Even though they probably already saw me with Erwin, which confirmed me to be gay. They probably just wanted to see me kissing the guy that hurts me both physically and emotionally, adding masochistic to their book of insults. "What's your game?" he looked at me a little more than slightly confused. "I said, what's your game Eren?!" My patience was running thinner with every second I was trapped in this room with him.

"What game?" His response only angered me further.

"Don't you dare even try to play coy with me! It's not going to work anymore. So where are you hiding the camera recording all of this?" I glanced around the room, looking for said object. "Or is your group of douchebag friends all outside, waiting to barge in at any given moment?" I took a step while saying, resulting in him clenching around the door as if he was afraid that I would use this moment to escape. "So what is it Eren, tell me." My arms were now crossed and resting on my chest, my hip slightly shifting to the right as I waited for his answer.