Take My Life[Ereri/ErenxLevi]

Take My Love

After spending three weeks in therapy, and two of those three weeks with Erwin, I can say with all honesty that I was feeling a lot better. I might even have to admit to my parents that sending me there actually turned out to be a good idea. Yet again, the sessions could be doing absolutely nothing, and all the praise should be going to my new established boyfriend.

The concept of dating a guy was foreign to me. Well, dating, in general, wasn't something that I was familiar with. I had always been aware of my sexuality since I was young, a certain someone made that part of my life very clear to me. Even though I never went through any significant trouble in accepting I was gay, I never had an interest dating anyone. No one ever caught my attention, well no one except Erwin and… Eren. Even though I despised that person with every ounce of my being, I cannot deny the fact that I had a romantic interest in him when I was foolish, "had", being the operative word. Perhaps those lingering feelings were the reason I chose to keep quiet. The reason why I took all of those years of abuse. It was easier to have him in my life and hate him, rather than him not be in my life at all. But that was my old mentality and way of thinking, now I see things for what they are. The not so crystal glass that was obstructing my vision, only offering an illusion of what lies in front of me, it was no longer there. I learned in a short amount of time that the glass must be broken, shattered in order for me to witness the beauty that is behind it. That glass is Eren, that beauty is life, and Erwin, he was the opener of my eyes.

Due to my accelerated healing process, my parents deemed that it was time for me to return to school. They still know nothing about my problems with school, I doubt that they'd ever let me go back if they did. The news was broken to me on Saturday. It’s been 24 hours since then, and let’s just say that I wasn’t taking the news very well. I get that I missed a shit ton of days, but I wasn’t sure if I was ready to handle that environment again. What if I revert back to my old ways, in spite of all of my progress. It’s a good thing that I had someone to fall back on and offer an escape when I was in dire need of one, that person was currently sitting next to me. Erwin thought it’d be nice to go to the park, watching nature as time went by. Normally I would object to something like this, sitting on the grass where bugs and dirt lie, potentially contracting every disease known to man, but it was different. Sitting here made me seem to forget my problems, not create more. That tends to happen a lot when I'm with him, every worry just melted away, as if they were insignificant.

“Levi” My attention was grasped by a deep and silky voice emitted by the handsome devil adjacent of me. “You're awfully quiet, is there anything troubling you?”

“No, I'm all right.” I said, trying to convince myself more than him. He seemed to have caught onto the apprehension that peeked through my facade, as he didn't look swayed in the slightest. Damn him for being so analytical of every situation surrounding him.

“I know that something is bothering you, Levi. I'm not going to push you to tell me what it is, I've never been the forceful type. Honestly, I believe it's the least efficient way of gaining information.” He pauses for a moment, looking me directly in the eye and taking my hands into his. I'd swear and say that the more I gazed into the elusive blue orbs, the more powered they garnered over me. It was almost hypnotizing. I was brought to reality once again as Erwin continued. “But I will say that I'm here to help. That is one of the main aspects of a relationship, is it not? To offer support to your partner when they are in need of it. I can be an outlet for all your worries Levi if you will allow me to be?”

He was right, and I'd be lying if I didn't say that it slightly irritated me. I had grown to be distant and closed off of others. The isolation offered slight comfort in the frigid Abyss that consumed me. Yet, I was changing, not a complete metamorphosis from my old form, but more of a gradual one. Almost like the process of a snake shedding it's worn out and unwanted skin, revealing a new armor glistening with the rejuvenation of itself. I more open as opposed to how I used to be, especially with Erwin. But I hadn't yet gotten to the point of voicing every single one of my concerns to him. I mostly used him as a wall, someone to silently lean on as a form of support. Perhaps that needs to change, he is so incredible in this whole relationship ordeal, the least I could do was expand my willingness to show a more vulnerable side of me, a side that was rawer. I would let him be the ‘outlet’ that he so desperately wants to become.