I'm Down But Definitely Not Out - A You Me At Six Fanfiction.

You're not leaving us again.

I bit my lip, feeling completely frozen; as in it felt as though I wasn't even breathing I heard someone clear their throat I looked up and let go my breath which I didn't realize I was holding; I noticed Dan giving me a confused, cold and hard look. I closed my eyes and turned around to exit through the door, but Josh decided to slide in front of it. I looked down and sighed, staring at the blue-gray carpet and my black converse shoes; I noticed Josh's shoes were black as well, since we are in the light now, I can see things much better, I put a hand through my brown hair and looked up at Josh who was giving me a concerned look. "Hazel?" he questioned, I raised an eyebrow, and looked into his beautiful blue eyes which I had missed, he looked concerned about me, although we haven't spoken in two years or seen each other until today. It felt great until now. I sighed shaking my hair "I'm going to go home" I replied slowly and moving closer to the door.

"No you're not Hazel-Grace" a deep, cold tone spoke as I turned around to see Dan speaking to me. I cocked an eyebrow up and looked at Dan, confused as he spoke up. I honestly thought Matt or Max would have been the ones to speak up as I was closer to them as well as Josh, but I was good friends with Dan. I sighed and just shook my head, "Hazel, speak to me outside, please? I need explanations" I gulped and bit my lip nodding; Dan walked in front of me, so I decided to follow him, looking at his brown hair, which he had dyed, due to the fact he had blonde hair when I last saw him. Dan wore a black shirt and blue jeans with black vans, I smiled slightly and followed him outside. I closed to door slowly and nodded at Dan. "Hazel, why the hell didn't you keep in contact?" I snorted and he glanced at me again "Should ask Joshua that question Daniel." I sighed, he flinched due to him knowing that I would never use their full names only when we're in a serious moment, which I guess was now "Josh and myself promised to keep in contact. I sent him messages, and when I found out he probably wasn't going to reply I only texted him every two weeks, asking how himself and you guys were. Don't ask me why I didn't keep in contact Daniel. Ask Joshua because he won't tell me either" My eyes started filling up with tears, I didn't realize how much I had missed them until now. Dan was a good guy for getting the truth out of you, giving advice, protecting and looking after you. I wished I had been closer to him now when I finally realized how loyal he actually was.

"I'm sorry Hazel, I should have gotten your number off him, I'm so sorry oh god, the girls miss you like hell, they wouldn't shut up about you the first year we graduated, and they still even speak about you now. If I mention you to them they'll probably go nuts and want to speak to you. Haze, speaking about them they'll be here in the morning…" he trailed off and I shook my head disagreeing "No, please no Dan I need to get home before morning, they'll harrass me and go nuts, the screaming and it won't be great. Besides my parents will probably come around and well, they'll pick me up to go to the hospital." I bit my lip, realizing he had no clue why I had been out this late, little own being at the hospital. He looked concerned and sighed, due to the fact I never spoke about the hospital because of the painful memory of when Adrian, my brother had passed away, when I was in my eleventh year.

*flashback*

I stood on the patio out the back, sobbing and trying to continue the picture of Ciel Phantomhive and Sebastian from Black Butler, but it wasn't working. I couldn't get my head straight, all that was on my mind was Adrian. He had passed away last night being in a car crash, which hell would I know how to handle, it honestly should have been me. I haven't really spoken about death before, but this was it. Adrian didn't deserve to die, everyone loved him. He was such a happy, passionate, beautiful man. His best friend Jake always came around and hung out with us, which I could understand he wasn't here due to it reminding him of Adrian. I needed Jake but I couldn't show him my emotions, I was good at hiding my emotions and I knew that for a fact, nobody knew how I felt except for my good friend, Daniel Flint who always knew how I felt, I trusted him more than my best friends Josh and Kayleigh, yet I never even told them about Adrian yet, Kayleigh would freak out and burst into tears, whereas Josh doesn't know Adrian. I heard the back door open and knew instantly who it was.

"Hazel? I'm so fucking sorry, god I can't explain how sorry I feel for you" He sat on the two seater wooden chair I had been sitting on and turned me around, pulling me onto his lap, instantly my arms wrapped around his neck, resting my head on his chest, while he wrapped his arms around me, I sighed and started crying, "Shh, shh Haze, it's okay, I'm here it's okay shh" he commented which made me cry more. Between sobs I decided to speak "Dan, thank you so much for being reliable and trustworthy. You're amazing" I started to stop crying and pulled back to look at him, his icy blue eyes just stared at me, he had been crying too and he gave me a sympathetic smile "Hazel, I'm always here for you. You know that, don't ever lose contact with me. I know you hate that hospital and people seeing you cry except for myself, but you got to see him. I'll go with you, hold your hand for you to say goodbye…" he said softly, I broke out into tears again.

*end of flashback*

I saw Dan frozen up, he looked pale white like a ghost, I walked over to him and wrapped my arms around his waist, tightly, leaning my head on his chest, he instantly wrapped his arms around me and we stayed there hugging for ages, until someone cleared their throat, I looked up to see a recognizable figure standing in front of me. She had brown hair, with blue green eyes. She was quite slim and almost the same height as Dan himself, but a bit smaller. She wore a black shirt, with a ginger cat on it, with blue skinny jeans and black canvas shoes. She had a blue jacket on and a beanie, which also had a cat on it. "Daniel, will you please explain to me who this girl is?" She spoke, her tone sounding almost as she was pissed off. I froze, as the tone was recognizable voice too. Was it Shelby? The girl Dan always flirted with back at school, who was one of my close friends? Who hung out with the group, could it be? "S-Shelby?" I spoke quietly, her cold look that was fixed on Dan suddenly went straight to me, she eyed me, and looked me up and down before her face went pale and looked shocked. "Is this a bloody dream?" She spoke and squealed a little bit "HAZEL GRACE WHYTE IS THAT YOU MY DARLING?" She shouted, I flinched at her tone and bit my lip nodding, but also wondering why she would be here at 1:30 in the morning, she saw my face and nodded "I drove up with the girls, they're in the car outside wondering if the guys are awake, since the answer is yes I'm going to go-" I cut her off "Please don't, I'm not up for explaining for my absence and no contact yet, I'll tell them tomorrow… afternoon okay?" I sighed and she nodded understanding "Dan, I'll speak to you more as why I mentioned that too…" He nodded and Shelby looked confused, I bit my lip and wondered what to do next, considering I had to explain to Max, Matt, Chris, Josh, and the girls which means Kayleigh? My face lit up and I shook my head "SHELBY IS KAYLEIGH IN THAT GOD DAMN CAR?" she nodded slowly and my eyes went wide, she had also lost contact with me over the two years.