I'm Down But Definitely Not Out - A You Me At Six Fanfiction.

Chapter 15 - Adrian

It had been just over a week since the last time I spoke to the group, apart from Beau. We spoke a little, but it wasn't as much as I usually spoke.

Shelby had invited me to hang out with the group in a local park, about a thirty minute walk from where I lived, I had accepted the offer - as they'd suspect something is wrong with me. Today would have been a beautiful day to hang out with friends, except today was the day Adrian has passed away; exactly three years ago.

I quickly got out of the shower, to find a black shirt and black hoodie to pull over and not look like absolute crap. I chucked on a pair of jeans and my old black ripped vans. I made my way down to the park and looked around the place.

It seemed quiet at this very moment, a few people were up; going to work, or just walking around - as it was only 10AM on a Saturday.

I shortly arrived after 10:30 and noticed everyone except for Josh sitting at the table Shelby told me to meet everyone at. As soon as I sat down and greeted everyone, Josh showed up. He ignored my gaze and seemed to not want to speak to me, after our little kiss last week. It killed me on the inside, but I played along with it. I could see Kayleigh noticing me look at Josh, as I wanted to speak to him badly.

"You're a little, quiet today?" Dan spoke up, I noticed everyone's gaze on me and nodded slowly.

"Uh, yeah. Not a good day" I spoke, no one knew why today was horrible, just before Dan could speak, as if it was on queue, my phone started ringing. I groaned and picked it up.

"Hello?" I answered quickly to notice a recognisable voice speak back.

"Hey, Hazel. I see you want to speak today" they replied. Great, just who I wanted to speak too.

"I thought I told you not to speak to me anymore, considering the last time we spoke, you almost killed me - Sam."

I saw everyone yet again, stare at me, as they had known this night too, how lovely.

"I wanted to apologize." He spoke, softly.

"Tell me another joke, you're not forgiven. After you tried to kill me, and I walked in on you and that whore." I harshly spoke back, I heard him chuckle under his breathe.

"Come on baby, you know you want me." I groaned and hung up, silently getting up as well.

"I have to go, meet someone back in Birmingham" I glanced at Josh to see his face fall into confusion. Of course I wasn't meeting anyone, I was going to visit Adrian, and speak to him.

"Birmingham?" I heard Josh speak to me, finally. His voice made my heart move, I swear and his gorgeous brown eyes shifted on my face. I nodded slowly.

"Uh, my mum wants to see me, better get going." before they could answer, I quickly walked away from them, I didn't want them to know about Adrian, or how I've been feeling the past week. It was always the hardest, I absolutely adored my brother and missed him like hell. I heard footsteps behind me, but ignored them, until their hand went on my shoulder.

"What do you want?" I spoke in a harsh tone, not wanting anything to do with anyone at this moment. His face dropped and he studied me,

"Are you okay?" he spoke softly, obviously trying not to upset me, ha that's already been and gone.

"Joshua, I'm visiting Adrian; do I look fucking okay?" he bit his lip and took a step away, before he could answer, I walked off. He hadn't spoken to me all day, hence all freaking week! He came in like a hurricane and left me as a mess. He didn't care, so why would he now. I walked to the bus stop and jumped on the earliest bus, which came rather quickly. It took a while from London to Birmingham, but I could wait, after all I was only visiting Adrian.

As I got off the stop near the cemetery, I heard a girl crying softly, I spun around to notice someone familiar.

She had been where Ellie and I worked, only for a short period time as she studied photography.

"Summer?" I asked, she looked up, rather surprised I still remembered her name and jumped up. She didn't know what to say, and to be honest, I didn't either. She was a lovely girl, but seeing her as a mess, was pure confusion.

"What's wrong?" I asked, and she stared blankly behind me.

"I was visiting my mother, why are you here?" We broke off into conversation, I explained to her about Adrian, because I felt as though I could trust her, she spoke to me about her mother, I felt sorry for Summer. She was two years younger than me and had faced in losing a parent, hell I only knew about my father until not long ago. I showed her Adrian's grave and she left me to have private time with him. She understood how this felt, although she seemed to be the only one.

"Hey Aid," I giggled a little, as I used to call him aids, as a joke, it used to annoy him. But, it seemed like something I could hold onto forever. "I know you probably can hear me, but whatever. I just wanted to say, it's hell without you here, and well I almost got to see you; if you remembered Sam. Ha, that was the last time we spoke. Anyway, I've bumped into the group from school again, yeah I'm friends with Josh again, well was. Friendship stuffed up, as you know; I'm horrible with people. I love you Adrian, and miss you like hell. Please visit soon" before I could speak anymore, I had broken down in over a year I held this all back. Without Adrian here, was the hardest thing. You see, we was my only friend until high school when I met Josh and everyone else, he loved seeing me happy with them, until he passed away and I managed to push everyone away, and then pretend to be happy near them, until we graduated and I happened to meet Beau and Ellie. I missed them a lot, but such is life.

I decided to get up and walk around Birmingham and look at my old high school life memories, I walked passed the school and glared at it for a while, remembering the good old times. It was great hanging there, three years ago. My phone started ringing, again, hoping it wasn't Sam I picked up.

"hello?" I answered, it seemed to be Dan - asking if I was okay, and what I was doing, I spoke to him for a good twenty minutes and told him about currently being outside our old school, he asked me about it, if it's changed. Not much had, he was apparently still with the group, and was nagging me to get my butt back there, sighing and finally giving in, it's what I did.