Yes its about the weight too but not about the number its about trying to control the number and hoping it will drop by whatever you try. Its not about skipping one meal its not about never eating because we actually do eat but we only have a dessert of regret with it. its about thinking 24/7 about how fat you feel, if you even should eat and if so what? Its about looking at a banana and seeing 88 instead of a yellow fruit. And they say we dont want anyone to notice but actually we fucking do. We do it in secret but actually when someone asks if we ate we think finally someone notices. When someone offers food we think finally someone noticed I didnt ate. But we dont wanna admit it because what would happen if all of this dissapears? We wont have any control anymore. We cant imagine our lives without our eating disorder.
JE LEEST
My life with an eating disorder
KurzgeschichtenIt all started when people kept calling me fat and when it came to the point that I saw it too and changed drastically well since then my life is one messy nightmare. {Feel free to rate & leave a comment}
