It was the first of December
Don't you remember?
You came into my life like a flash of light
Just as I thought there was no hope in sight
It was a good run, but try as I might
To fix it, make things right
Nothing is better, the future isn't so bright...
But try as I may
I can't begin to express how I feel,
Nothing seems real
Even to this day
Crying, breaking, on this ground I lay
I have no motivation, no words,
I just want to go back to the days
Where we'd lay together, starin' at the sky
We had it all planned out, forever you and I
But that all came crashing down on the seventh of March
The day I died
The day I lost it all
The day that knocked me down for good, even now I still fall
I scream for help, an aid
Something to numb the pain
But it is a lost cause
When your brain is problematic
You're erratic,
You're words and actions are frantic
And you're a hopeless romantic
I just want to be needed again
I just want to go back and listen
Try to understand
How am I supposed to fix it when you never said a word
You never told me
And now I'm broken, lonely
I've slashed my skin
Even though I told you not to again and again
I drank that poison in a bottle
Even though I hate it
My own preachings I need to follow
I need to stand up, ask for help
My pride I need to swallow
My own mind hates me, all night and day,
I suffer through it's torment
I have feelings and urges that you helped keep dormant
I think I think too much...
But it all ends up back on December
I will always remember
I'll never forget 15 months of perfection
15 months of pure love and affection
I always thought it was you that needed protection
I am the one needing it, I need a resurrection...
