I can feel you hurt
I don't know how, but I can
It is like a mental connection
Even when you are far away, I can feel it...
I guess it is the same way I get happy when you get happy
Or I cry when you can't
Or I am scared when you are
Or how I can feel your excitement
I could tell it was you who read and voted...
You have me muted, but I guess it is better that way.
I saw that you were the one who voted them and I got happy
But I also got sad
I cried and I am not sure whether it was from joy or absolute sorrow...
I am sorry for blocking you, but I had to...
I hurt every time I looked at your photo...
I said I deleted our pictures and texts, but I didn't...
I couldn't...
My walls are bare and I did want him to hold on to the notes until I got better
But I have decided that I do not want to get better because I want something
It is not about me
That is a problem I have
I know, I was arrogant and sometimes I seemed to only care about myself, but that was never the case...
I would have done anything for you,
And they call me dumb, naive, too trusting, and say I am a fool
Because I still will......
I would die for you, but I would prefer to live for you
Because then I cod spend every day still making you smile
I am going to get better...
For you...
I never, ever, ever, ever
Meant to hurt and scare you...
I am going in to therapy really soon and I have this thing I am doing to help me sleep without nightmares and I learned a good exercise to help me calm down. I also am going to a group therapy thing.
I honestly have been praying every night and have also prayed for you... And to be able to be able to talk again when we get better...
I have cried myself to sleep every night lately because I just want held and it is torture because I only want held by you...
I hope you reply somehow or atleast vote...
