Teenage Memories

NOT AN UPDATE

Hi sorry this isn't an update, not like anyone really reads this. I like to write poetry and was told that this poem I wrote was really good. I don't think so but I'm gonna share it with the few people who read this book. Btw ty for reading it. I got the name from a song btw. Also this took me a lot to post......This poems about my dad and is kinda harsh so here it is:

Father of Mine

Father of mine,
Do you realize that I'm like glass?
Fragile,
Weak,
Delicate.
One rock can break me into peices.
One rock is one word.
One word is all it takes,
To bring me down.

Father of mine,
Do you hear yourself?
The words that come out of your mouth?
Yelling at me.
Screaming at me.
Degrading me.
Spitting out words, sentences, mistakes.
Do you listen?

Father of mine,
Do you see her?
The broken girl standing here?
In front of you.
Can you see me?
A silhouette of a perfect girl you once knew.

Father of mine,
Want a newsflash?
I am her dad.
You see her clearer?
Brown hair.
Brown eyes.
Small nose.
That's me.
I'm her.
Me.
I'm a house of cards that has been blown over from a breath.

Father of mine,
Congrats you won a broken daughter!
Your only real daughter,
Broken.
Empty.
Alone.
Gone.

Father of mine,
I hate to say it, but I hate you dad.
When we talk i wait for the final words,
"Love you. Bye."
So I can be relieved of pain.
I'm broken from you.
You made me this way.
You.
Broke.
Me. I didn't choose this.
I blame you.

Father of mine,
I can't speak to you.
I can't open up to you.
I can't stand you.

Father of mine,
You talk at me.
I'm not listening.
In one ear
Right out the other.
I don't care.
Talk at me.
In 20 minutes come back and ask what you said.
I couldn't tell you.

Father of mine,
I'm done trying.
I give up
On you,
I give in.
Throwing in the white towel.
Thanks dad.
Thanks father of mine.

-Jackie