Mates With A Rogue

Chapter 17

Brooke's POV:

I kept crying in Andy's arms, it was uncontrollable. I just wish he'd say something instead of being so quiet and leaving me to sob. He could say anything right now to comfort me, anything yet he's choosing not to. Maybe I've pushed him away to, he's probably debating in his head whether to reject me all not. I don't blame him, I'm a mess.

"Babe please don't think like that, I would never reject you. I love you way too much to let you go."

This reassured me a little, but it doesn't help me knowing I've ruined everything. Maybe I should just lock myself away in a room and never come out... I like that idea.

I remove myself from Andy and miserably trudge towards the stairs. Andy doesn't follow me and I get a bit annoyed at that. He can read my thoughts can't he? Then why isn't he trying to stop me from locking myself away from the rest of the world. Probably because he wants me to.

More tears start to stream out of my eyes as I reach the bedroom door. I don't hesitate to open it up and slam it shut. Once it's slammed shut I can hear Andy rushing up the stairs. I quickly lock the door and throw myself onto the bed.

There's loud continuous knocks on the door along with Andy shouting.

"Babe let me in!!!"

I try my best to utter a no, even with his heightened senses I don't think he could hear it.

"Babe what have I done, if it's about our pup I'm sorry."

This made me angry. The fact that he thinks he can bring our unborn DEAD child into the topic and blame it on himself infuriates me. So I decide to get up, open the door and shout at Andy.

"DONT YOU DARE BRING OUR LITTLE PUP INTO THIS. AND DONT YOU DARE BLAME IT ON YOURSELF WHEN YOU KNOW CLEARLY IT WAS MY FAULT. JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!"

I slam the door in his face and lock it.

And you moan about pushing people away.

My wolf says before leaving me alone once again. I hate to admit this but she's right... I do moan at myself for pushing people away yet I do it anyway. What's wrong with me?

I go to open the door and apologise to Andy, but before I could he just talks from the other side of the door.

'Brooke I'm going to sleep over Peridot's place for a bit... Please don't take this the wrong way. You need your space and I respect that, so that's exactly what I'll do. Mind link me when your ready for me to come back... I love you.'

And with that being said I can sense his presence slowly leaving. Now I really am alone.

***

It's been a week I think. I haven't really been counting, I've been too busy blaming myself for everything. I don't even remember the last time I ate. Landon and Benji have been visiting me but stopped after a couple of days, they probably think I'm a miserable bitch.

Andy's mum has also been trying to mind link me, it's got to the point where I blocked her out as well. I'm really good at this pushing away stuff.

Wolf I am so sorry, please come back to me. Say something, anything and ill take it in consideration. I've dug myself into the point of no return and I need help. I feel like my mate is on the line and I can't have that. Please help me.

That's how most of my conversations with my wolf began and finished. I know she definitely hasn't left me completely otherwise I wouldn't be able to talk to her at all, I can't help but feel abandoned and isolated all to myself. Much like I did when I was a child.

The only way I got rid of that feeling was... yes. That's the only way to make me feel better. That's the only way that's going to work...

Andy's POV:

I've destroyed almost everything in the guest room Peridot provided me, that's when Peridot kicked me out for 'wrecking' his house. I don't know what he's saying as the house looked like shit anyway.

I'm now sharing a room with Cody, that's right I've turned to my youngest brother for help. That's how far gone I am. I miss Brooke so much. I haven't been able to sleep, eat or do anything for that matter. I'm like a cloud of sadness looming around the pack.

Even my father has had to take over my pack duties and become temporary alpha. I just wish Brooke would come back to me, every time I receive a mind link I get excited. Only to be shut down when I realise it's not her.

I sit at the family table for our Sunday meal, the whole family is here. It's silent. No one talks and no one wants to. No one really knows how to react around me anymore either. All I know is only Brooke can make me better but even she isn't here.

I'm snapped out of my thoughts when multiple sharp pains run down my right arm. The pain is excruciating and I scream out in pain. The scratching feeling stops but the pain is still there. Like several knives have been dragged down my arm.

'Darling are you okay?'

My mum says shooting over to me with worry evident in her face. This is just like the time Brooke was stolen and was being beat.... Wait a minute.

'BROOKE!'

I yell before darting up and running out of the house, how could Brooke do this? Again!?!
I run past a ton of pack members ignoring there greetings. As soon as I reach my home I fling the door open and pratically fall in.

'BROOKE WHERE ARE YOU!?!'

No answer, I'll depend on my senses instead. I speed up the stairs and stand outside of the bathroom door, she's in there.

'BROOKE!?!'

No answer. Guess I better knock the door down.

The sight before me tears me apart. There's Brooke in all her beauty. But this Brooke has tear stained cheeks. In her left hand she's holding a razor. On her right arm are fresh new cuts oozing out blood.

Her red poofy eyes look up at me and immediately turn away.

'I know y-you a-are a-ash-ashamed of M-me...'

This broke me even more. I rip my shirt off and wrap it around her injuries.

'Brooke I'm not ashamed, I'm in awe. But please don't do this ever again, for me. I hate seeing you like this and I want you to remember one thing. I love you like no one else could. Please don't leave me.'

I say and wrap my arms around her fragile body.

'I-I love y-you t-to Andy.'

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HEY GUYS!!!

I know I haven't updated in forever and I'm so sorry. I guess I just had a really big writers block and couldn't think of what to write I guess. I still think this chapter is really shitty but oh well.

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