Lucky Number Seven

Izayah 37

I got a big ego, there was really no other way of putting it. I had a massive ego, but I had every right too. Standing at an impressive 6'5, light skinned, grey eyes, muscular build, deep waves, tattoos all over my body, and the goatee can't forget the goatee that had EVERYBODY wanting to get at me. So yeah I was cocky but so what if you weren't cocky you were insecure, and I had nothing to be insecure about. I sat in my car in front of this house, and thought back on my childhood. I wasn't always like this though, there was a time where I was actually somewhat nice. But life has a way of fucking thing's up. I guess that's why they say life's not fair. True shit life wasn't fair. But death on the other hand was the fairest justice in the world. Death was fair when my dad shot my mom right in front of me and Iran, death was also fair when my dad turned the gun on himself, and death was fair when it took Aaron. Oh yeah death was really fair when it took Aaron. That name always made me sad, he was the only person to ever hear I love you beside my family. Here we go again I thought every time I thought about Aaron it was like I was pulled into my past to the last day I seen Aaron. We were 15 and I wasn't exactly the best boyfriend to Aaron and the last time I seen him we were arguing again.

IZAYAH'S FLASHBACK

"Zay please I can't keep doing this with you." Aaron said crying. I hated seeing him cry mostly because I was always the cause.

"Aaron look I'm sorry." That was the line I always used when I got caught cheating on him. Which was often.

"Zay you always said that but you always end up doing it again. I'm done." Aaron said quietly.

"Wait what do you mean your done?" I asked confused.

"Izayah you know what I mean, I'm done. Done with you, done with your cheating ways, done with this dead end relationship. I love you Zay, I always will but if I stay with you then I'm only going to keep getting hurt. So I'm going to end it now." I remember standing there trying to understand his words.

"Aaron you really just going to leave me?" I asked. "Aaron I lo...... I lov................"

"See Zay you can't even say it. I'm gone, I love you Zay, you see how easy it is for me to say it because I know it's true. But you don't love me that's why you can't get the words out your mouth." Aaron grabbed his coat and started walking out my door. That's when it finally hit me, like a ton of bricks.

"Aaron wait please don't go." I said grabbing his hand.

"Why Zay? Why should I stay?" He ask looking me in the eyes.It was now or never, my only chance to tell him how I really felt.

"Aaron I love you aight. I fucking love you, and I'm scared that I might love you to much so I cheat to convince myself that I don't. I'm scared of love because of what happened with my parents. My dad told my mom he loved her all the time and you see how that ended. Aaron my biggest fear is that I'll hurt you, that I'm like him. That shit scares me more than anything." Aaron walked over to me and kissed me. It wasn't until he wiped away some tears that I realized I was crying.

"Zay it's okay, I'm right here." I broke down in his arms.

"Aaron I'm sorry, I'm sorry for everything I've put you through." I held him and cried. After I was done we went to my room and fucked. But this time it was different it was more than fucking for the first time in my life I made love. After we were done Aaron got up kissed me and told me he had to get home. I didn't want him to leave, but I knew he had to get home, and take care of his grandma.

"I'll call you when I get home. I love you Izayah." Aaron said kissing me.

"I love you too Aaron." I watched him walk away and fell asleep. I don't remember what happened after that all I remember is Iran waking me up and three words.

"Zay I'm sorry." I remember breaking down in his arms, the weeks following that was a blur but that's when I threw my heart away, buried it with Aaron.

I was brought back to the present by a knock at the window. I got out the car and ran over to the passenger side, and opened the door. Once I got back in my car smelled like vanilla and lavender. I smiled started the car.

"Boy turn that shit off." This was our usual routine.

"How doing today Mama Wright?" I said to Aaron's grandma.

"Oh you know I can't complain, I had Ben over last night so you know I'm doing good."

"Man I don't wanna hear that shit." I said covering my ears.

"Boy get yo head outta the gutter. All we did was watch that Jersey Shore, boy I'll tell you what Snooki that's my girl." I started laughing, I loved Mama Wright when Aaron died I started taking care of her. I took her everywhere the doctor, the store, hell I even took her to see her boyfriend Mr. Ben, even though they said that they weren't fucking around I knew better.

"So how have you been really?" I asked.

"Missing Aaron, Sometime I swear I still hear him in his room listen to Chris Brown." She said smiling. "I know he's in a better place though." I just kept driving, Aaron always found his way into our conversations.

"Yeah every time I hear Chris Brown I think of Aaron, he used to love him some Chris Brown."

"Not as much as he loved you." Mama Wright said. "Izayah boy have you ever thought about moving on. I know you loved that boy but maybe you should instead of fucking everything in sight."

"Mama Wright you know I'm a virgin." I said smiling.

"Boy you better quit that lying."

I dropped her off at the doctor and waited in the car until she was finished. As I sat in my car I started thinking about Seven. Him and Tyson had a great relationship from what they both told me and the only thing stopping them from getting back together was the fact that Tyson played to many games. I came to the conclusion that I was going to get them back together, not for them but for me. Because maybe Mama Wright was right I maybe it was time for me to move on, and I already had somebody in mind. Gabriel. Yeah he was my target, he looked just like Aaron they could past for twins. I felt my phone vibrate in my pocket and looked at it.

TYSON: COME OVER AND CHILL

I sat there and started to come up with a plan to get them back together because I knew that Seven was feeling Gabriel, and I had to get at him before Seven did.

ME: YEAH I'LL BE OVER WE HAVE TO TALK N-E- WAYZ

TYSON: ABOUT WHAT?

ME: I'LL LET YOU KNOW WHEN I GET THERE I'LL B OVER N BOUT AN HOUR

TYSON: ALRIGHT SEE U THEN.

Mama Wright got in the car and looked at me. "Boy you look like you up to no good." She said.

"Nah you know I'm a good boy." I said.

"Yeah whatever nigga you bout as good as Satan." I smiled and started going over ways to get at Gabriel.