Stuck in the Middle

Gossip

Chapter Twenty

My alarm pierced my ears at 6.30am and I groaned, trying to roll over and switch it off but I was held into place by Zayn's warm body.

I knew he was awake by the small grin on his face and I shook his body to try and escape from his embrace.

"Zayn please, I need to turn off the alarm or I'm going to go deaf!" I pleaded and he laughed before letting me go.

I quickly turned the alarm off and sighed in relief as the room went quiet again. Almost as soon as I had turned it off I felt strong hands wrap themselves around me and pull me back into Zayn's arms.

"I have work." I groaned as he started decorating the back of my neck with sweet tender kisses. He was making getting out of bed an extremely difficult task. I let him continue on with his kisses while I checked my phone. I had forgotten for a few blissful minutes what had happened last night until I saw a text Louis has sent me at 5.42am.

"Harry got back a few minutes ago, completely trashed with some girl. Thought I should tell you. We need to talk though Demi."

Zayn read the text over my shoulder and lightly rested his chin against the cold skin of my shoulder before letting out a small sigh. I knew it hurt him to know how much pain he had caused one of his best friends and I couldn't imagine how he must be feeling. Not only had he hurt Harry, but this had also jeopardised his relationship with the other boys.

"Zayn?" I whispered barely audible, not quite sure what to say but knowing I had to say something.

"Yeah?" He replied resting his arms around my waist, squeezing me slightly.

"Are you okay?" I asked turning my head to face him and meeting his lips halfway. His kiss was unexpected and he held me tight as his lips dominated mine, telling me that he was more than okay with kissing me. I smiled into the kiss before pulling away.

"I mean are you okay? Don't think about me for a second, just tell me." I said making sure he couldn't avoid the question again by covering my lips with my hands. He grinned sheepishly at my silly expression before his face turned serious.

"Not really. I don't know what the boys think of me right now... Maybe I shouldn't know."

He paused for a long minute, his eyes dipping down to look at the blankets, staring into space, deep in thought.

"I didn't mean to hurt Harry. I didn't mean to make a move on you at all, I hardly even knew you when I kissed you, I still have so much to learn about you, but Harry was making it clear that he was interested and I was so jealous. Something just took over me and I had to have you. I guess I haven't been acting very responsibly." He finished shaking his head in frustration. I had to agree that neither of us had been acting responsibly, but we were both to blame.

"I keep asking myself if its all worth it." Zayn said sparking up my interest again. My face must have given away some sort of hurt because he quickly backtracked.

"Don't, please don't get upset. It's just that you still haven't made a decision and I keep telling myself that you'll choose me but..." He trailed off resting his head on my shoulder again. The guilt that ran through me was immense and I wished I could have told Zayn right there and then that I had chosen him but I would be lying if I did.

"Maybe we should let things settle down with Harry first and see if he can accept the idea of us together." I said slowly, hoping that this would be enough for him. Zayn nodded while a small smile spread slowly across his lips.

"Anyway can I please go to work now? My boss already hates me." I said as I untangled myself from the warm sheets. He quickly leaned over and kissed me, so hard that I started to fall backwards off the bed. I almost freaked out but I fell into his strong hands and he held me in place as his lips said everything he couldn't seem to say. My knees were weak when he let me go and I struggled to walk into the bathroom like a normal person.