Unconditionally

Chapter 12

Kelli's POV
I woke up and felt strong arms around my body. I look up and see Billy's adorable face. Mhm, I'm glad to have him back. I should probably make him some breakfast since I'm in a happy mood. Um, Eggs and bacon? Oh I don't know. I'll see when I get to the kitchen.
I gave Billy a peck on the lips before I slipped out of his arms without waking him up, which is good since I want the breakfast to be a surprise.

I was on my way to the door, I walked past a mirror. And I was surprised at what I saw. I almost let out a shriek. Almost, but didn't. I looked paler. Like really pale. You know the colour of Edward's skin in Twilight? Pretty much that. Or ghost white. I was kind of scared. As I got a closer look, that was when I realised I looked skinnier. Skinnier than usual. I'm pretty sure girls would be like, 'EEEH! I'm so happy I look skinnier than I did a few weeks ago!' but this is just scary. I lifted my shirt and I shrieked. I started crying because I was scared, so I broke down on the floor. I pulled my hair and saw a big chunk of hair. I stood up and saw a small bald patch in my head. I heard Billy's footsteps and quickly threw the hair to the side.

"Kelli!" Billy screamed. I whipped my head around to look at him just to see him breathing heavily. When he looked at me his eyes softened. Then he looked concerned.
"What's wrong?" He asked. He got up and walked over to me with open arms and I quickly ran into them.
"I'm scared Billy. I'm really scared." I cried into the hug.
"Why?" He asked as he pulled away. I stepped away from him and held my arms in the air.
"Billy, I don't know what's wrong. I'm paler and skinnier. Just look at me. I'm ghost white and you can freakin count my ribs." I sobbed as I pulled my shirt up to my bra so you could see my stomach and ribs. Billy looked shocked. "Billy, I'm scared." I cried. He pulled me into a hug. I didn't want to tell him about the hair because everyone knows when you have cancer all your hair will fall out and if he knows I'm going to be bald he might leave me. And I don't want that to happen.

"Just looking at you makes me scared and worried about your health." He said. I felt something wet and hot on my hand. I looked down and saw a tear. I looked up and saw that he was crying silent tears, so I wiped his eyes.
"What should we do?" I asked. It was a stupid question I know, but I'm scared. I don't know what to do.
"How about we get you something to eat, then we go to the doctor?" He asked.
"But I'm not hungry."
"Then get dressed. We're going to the doctors now." He ordered. I nodded and went to get changed.

I changed into denim skinny jeans, which scared the crap out of me because I needed a belt to hold the pants up, combat boots which thankfully still hit me, a singlet and a black leather jacket. I left my jacket unzipped and got a grey scarf. I brushed then straightened my hair and got my sunglasses. I went to brush my teeth then went to the front door to see Billy waiting for me. He was in denim jeans, a shirt and sun glasses.
"Let's go." I said and he nodded. We got into his car and he pulled out of the driveway.

"Are you sure you're not hungry?" He asked me. I nodded.
"I'm scared as hell Billy. Do you think my cancer is going more worse than before?" I asked.
"No." He said as he shook his head.
"I don't think your cancer has got worse than before. Just know that I'm just as scared as you are Kelli." He told me. I nodded. Then the rest of the trip was quiet.

When we got to the doctors Billy went to the reception while I took a seat at the waiting bay. When he came back I got up and hugged him.
"I'm petrified." I whispered.
"Me too." He said. We broke apart and sat down. We waited and waited and waited for what seems like years when it has only been half an hour. Some people came, some left, some were even asleep. I couldn't even blink.
"I'm very anxious." I said.
"Me too."
"Mr. Unger and Ms. Berglund?" A doctor asked. Billy and I instantly shot up.
"Please follow me." He said.

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After the doctors we was driving home. The doctor just said it's normal to be like that when you have cancer and I will need to have appointments with him more often. I started thinking about the big chunk of hair that came out today. Thank the lord no one saw the bald patch. Should I just shave all my hair off and get it over and done with it should I suffer and see my hair coming out in big chunks every day.

I saw a barber shop.
"Billy stop here please." I said.
"Why?" He asked
"I just want to walk for a bit." I said.
"Do you want me to come with you?" He asked.
"No I just want to be alone." I said.
"Ok take care I'll be at your house" he said. I nodded and got out of the car. Billy waved at me and u waved back and he drove of. Then I walked into the barber shop. Am I really going to do this?

So is she going to shave her hair off or not?? THIS CHAPTER IS RITTIN BY THE BEAUTIFUL BelliBrase4Life SO GIVE ALL THE CREDIT TO HER!!!! GO FOLLOW HER!!!!! ALSO THANK U FOR RITIN THIS WONDERFUL CHAPTER!!!!!!!