Dolan twin imagines

Home sick (Grayson)

You know when you just kinda start to wonder if you can be homesick of a place that doesn't exist For you anymore. I feel that way right now, like there is a place where I'm meant to be but I'm not there. I think the more I think about being somewhere other than where I am makes me feel like I'm never going to be able to be anywhere.
I know where I want to be, but I just don't know if that's the right place for me right now. Not that I can go there anyway.
I needed an escape from my life. An escape from all the thoughts that roamed my mind.
I wanted to be with Grayson because I felt that He could protect me from anything harmful even if the harm was coming from my own mind.
I needed to be with him, it just wasn't a possibility.

It's was hard to be together sometimes due to the fact that I lived on the other side of the world to him. Mornings and nights it's always the opposites for us. If it was morning here then it was night over there and vies versa.
I missed him a lot and we always said that we would end up visiting each other but it never seemed to work out. (This is the point in which homesickness started becoming a part of me.)
We couldn't visit each other for countless reasons
I have school.
he's famous.
I'm a suburban girl.
He's an Internet sensation.
I'm unnoticed.
He's seen by millions.
Just to name a few.

We had a lot of differences but those differences always seemed to make us United.
Like 2 pieces of a puzzle that have been connected, we are only 1 pair that somehow made a whole picture.

So as I lay here in my bed at 3am and I ponder on the thoughts of.......
Does homesickness always have to be about missing a home or can it be about people as well?
Because if it can be about people than I would say I'm extremely homesick, I need to be with Grayson. Embrace his loving person. And take in anything that I could possibly muster up the courage to witness.
I'm not the most affectionate person but with him it's....... Different. It feels right, like thats where I belong and where I must be. With his arms around my fragile person it feels like home.

People say that home is where your heart is. My heart is with Grayson, so hopefully I have never left his mind because I know for a fact he has not left mine. I hope that I'm still with him in some way shape or form.
Others have told me that my homesickness is just a state of mind in which I can't possibly fathom my world not being intertwined with Grayson's. It was a great theory but I still wasn't sure about feeling homesick for a person because I didn't really ever feel that way, not even towards my family.

Just to be clear here Grayson and I aren't together, we did everything that couples did it was just never official.
I always thought we would become more but I guess Grayson had other thoughts.
He kissed her cheek and loved her the way any girl would want to be loved
And then I knew
That I could be
Homesick for people too.
I was homesick for Grayson, his body, mind and just him......
The way he moved
The way he talked
The way I wanted him to love me
Someone once asked me if I knew Grayson,
A million memories of us flashed through my mind. But I could only respond with "I used to".

Throughout the days in which I have not been in the company of Grayson I have felt exiled by the things that once defined me.
I will always remember my time spent with whom I thought at the time was
my one true love. Maybe he still is.

I want to one day not have a constant feeling of something missing.
One day I want to be home again
Where my body is loved
My heart is full
And my soul is understood
Hopefully my home will consist of Grayson Bailey Dolan.
A life in which Homesickness will no longer creep up on the either of us.

So this is a new Grayson imagine!! But I wanted to know..... Do u guys like the way I write my imagines or would u guys like more imagines where the characters have conversations and stuff like that???? Please comment below because I don't know in what way to write.
Also requests are open if u would like one refer back to the requests chapter of this book.
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