ONE SHOTS ft.AD

I'll be your crying shoulder

Den's 

"Kim Dy!!!!!!!!" 

Her name echoes right now sa arena. Man, this girl is a bomb. Kahit Im rooting for Ateneo, my former team ofc, I cant deny na I admire her. Shes a beast. 

Im here right now sa likod lang mismo ng bench ng Ateneo. DLSU is now at championship point, and the girls are in a very dangerous situation right now. Kahit sobrang laki ng faith ko sa  kanila, there is no denying  na this game is uncensorly done. They are trailing by as much as 8.DLSU only needs one to seal the deal. As I scan their faces, I can see different emotions.

Jia. She may look calm right now and poised but I know that deep inside, there is a war brewing inside her heart and mind. Sobrang pressured to since obvious namang during this game, Kim Fajardo outsmarted her. Not to take anything  away from Jia, for the record she played well. Pero Kim is on a diff level right now, She's playing as if there's no tomorrow. 

Bea.Kung gaano kacomposed si Jia, ganun kafrantic si Bei ngayon. This is the very first time shes facing this kind of situation. She may look like a strong one, well she is naman but during times like this? She is the most vulnerable one. 

Jho. I can read through her eyes the need to kill. To Kill a ball. To give the team a point, and to extend the game. 

Gizzle. She's so frantic like Bea. Actually naaawa ako sa knya ngayon. Ang bigat ng pressure na nakapatong sa shoulders nya. Ganun ba kataas ang standards na iniwanan ko? 

Kim. She's trying to exhale the pressure but I can see that any minute from now, shes about to explode. I can also see from afar na nanginginig ang braso nya and she even tried to pinch herself.Damn 

and last... but definitely not the least....... I looked at her and for the first time, I can see nothing but PAIN. FRUSTRATION. SADNESS. She tried closing her eyes to remain composed but I can feel that any minute from now... Lahat ng pinipigilan nyang luha babagsak na. I can feel na kung kaya lang nya, Sya na rerecieve, sya na magseset sa sarili nya at sya na rin papalo at magdidig if mabablock sya. Alam kong her mind is telling her to do something, pero right now? shes helpless. 

for the first time in 5 years.... Im seeing a very vulnerable side of her..Im seeing a very soft, and fragile part of the Phenom. My Phenom. Oh damn. Pakiramdam ko, nabibiyak ung puso ko sa sakit. 

Di ko namalayan na masyado na akong titig kay Alyssa na nagbagsakan na pala yung mga confettis. Its over. They lost, but they still won my heart. She still won my heart. 

Dali dali syang umikot sa buong court at nagwave habang pinipilit na ngumiti sa crowd. My god, How can she manage to smile when deep down shes hurting? I hate seeing her like this. Im not used to see her like this. She has always been the strong one. Yes umiyak naman yan pero not like this. Right now, Yung iyak nya halo halong frustration, pain, sadness, and guilt na ata laman. Hindi dapat ganun. She has nothing to be ashamed of. She played her heart out since the very beggining. She doesnt deserve to feel any of this. Pwde bang hatiin na lang yung championship? pwde bang co-champions na lang?