May Death Never Stop You (Completed)

Chapter 3

"One day I'll lose this fight, as we fade in the dark. Just remember you will always burn as bright." -The Light Behind Your Eyes, Gerard Way, My Chemical Romance.
                     "Be strong and hold my hand. Time—it comes for us, you'll understand. We'll say goodbye today, and I'm sorry how it ends this way. If you promise not to cry, then I'll tell you just what I would say." -The Light Behind Your Eyes, Gerard Way, My Chemical Romance.

When they all flew in Aunt Helena and I were waiting to greet them at baggage claim. I ran to hug all 4 of them tightly. Then we picked up their bags and walked them to the car. As we drove home, which was what I had decided to call Aunt Helena's house, we listened to MCR and screamed it so loud Aunt Helena almost had a heart attack. When we got home I took all of them to see my new room, and they were very impressed with it. They said it even looked better than my old one. Chris then noticed something and said, "Whoa. Is that an autographed MCR poster?!? And OMG! Why does it look like you have GERARD WAY's cowboy guitar and infamous art book sitting on your desk?!?" I rubbed the back of my neck saying, "Well... That's... Because... It is. My friend Kat, she goes to my school and has like 4 classes with me, is dating Frank. Because of that I've hung out with the guys a bunch, and Gerard's stared into my eyes. He's hugged me, and comforted me, and he's even helped me write a song for my music class at school. We've had normal conversations and laughed like normal people too. AND when he helped me with the song, I couldn't quite get the guitar part right, so he wrapped his arms around me and put his hands over mine and helped me learn it right." I sighed after saying this, and then sat on my bed. As I sat on my bed with a somber aura, Katie asked, "Is something wrong Allie? I know this WHOLE thing has been hard, but you CAN tell US what's wrong yknow." I sighed again before saying, "Well. The last time I saw Gerard was when we worked on my song pretty much. He came over the week after to show me a new song he was working on, plus this very beautiful picture of some random girl he'd come up with from his head. He accidentally left his book and guitar here, but they've been REALLY busy lately so he hasn't had time to come and pick them up. EVERY time I'm around him, or even someone who's been around him it ALL feels DIFFERENT yknow. Like with him IT ALL goes away. It's like it never happened. But then he leaves to go be famous again or something like that, and I get bad again. I start to fall into IT again, and I cannot control myself. ALL I wanna go do then is yknow, but I somehow keep running hoping that maybe he won't be so busy and that he'll have time for me. I mean, we get time eventually, but it's NEVER enough yknow." I had started crying by now, "I just kinda REALLY, and not like it used to be when I was just a Fangirl, LOVE him okay? And now that I have realized that and known what his presence is like. Now that I know how it feels to possibly be loved back, how it feels when someone you love cares that much about you, I just HATE letting it go. It rips my heart in two, and I cannot bear it anymore. The worst part is though, that I'm not even sure if he knows how I feel. I mean, I think he knows because when we do hang out he seems to kinda try and make an effort to be somewhat romantic as if he likes me back yknow. But he probably doesn't know and only does that stuff as friendly and I'M the ONE who MISINTERPRATES it as romantic. Oh G-d what if I have this ALL wrong and It'll backfire so badly in my face that I'll look like and be a TOTAL looser and fool. WHY DID ANY OF THIS HAVE TO HAPPEN TO ME, ME OF ALL THE DARN PEOPLE IN THE WORLD, WHY ME?!?" At this, Katie came over and hugged me SUPER tightly and told me to stop worrying and panicking. She told me it would be okay, and that he probably DOES like me back. Plus sometimes things happen that we cannot control. When this is the case, we just accept what happens and go with it because we cannot do much else. Things will get better, they will. But it's PERFECTLY normal for me to be this way still because its only been 2 months, and you cannot expect a person to get over something that tragic that fast. Then Maggie said, "Yes. It will ALL be okay Allie, just wait. Healing takes time. But even though we may not live here, we are ALL still here for you okay?" I nodded before Cindy said, "We LOVE you Allie, and we CARE TOO MUCH about you to just let you go this way or any way right now." Then we all hugged before Chris walked over with Maggie to look at the guitar and art book. The book was a simple old composition book that Gerard had glued a red ribbon bookmark onto the side of. The ribbon was still marking the drawing of the random girl, so Maggie picked it up and turned to that page. Upon looking at the picture she gasped and brought it over to the rest of us to see. The consensus was that the girl WAS in fact ME. Maybe not a direct interpretation of me no, but it certainly was me. This could only mean one thing, and that thing seemed pretty evident in his artwork. Most of the more recent pages, actually almost all of them, were filled with drawings that were somehow of me. I guess he's found himself an artistic muse. Then we all hugged again before walking downstairs to all watch our favorite movie.