Cabin Fever

Closure

Ryan

I didn't want to hurt him. I thought since our talk he'd be okay. Thanks to me I guess not. He won't talk to me or look at me. In beginning to think this was all just a huge mistake. It's been three weeks now. Almost a month. Scott has been on our asses since day one and we only have two songs done. I told him the name of our album. He didn't seem too impressed either. Today Jon and I decided to go into town for more supplies since Spencer is still sleeping and Brendon was still ignoring me. Plus I haven't really day down and had a normal conversation with him in a while. Since Haley broke up with Spence I wanted to make sure he was okay. He really liked her. I guess it just wasn't meant to be. Jon and I drove in silence. Finally he couldn't take it anymore and turned up the radio. The only station that seemed to work was only the country station but we didn't mind.

"Hey something is up with B, so you know what it is." He asked his eyes never leaving the road. I sighed I might as well tell him.

"Brendon is a little hurt by the fact I based our album after our moment in the woods." I hesitated. He halted a bit then kept going.

"Go on."

"It's not like we didn't feel anything. Cause we did. I just think we panicked."

"So you like him."

"....Yes." I hesitated again. Should I even be telling him this.

"And he likes you?"

"I'd like to say I'm positive but I'm not sure.."

"Then what's the problem!" He said raising his arms from the wheel. I instantly grabbed it on impulse and he quickly gained control of the car again. Tires screeching in the process.

"The problem is I don't know how to actually tell him."

"Look, Ryan if you're scared you think he might not like you because you think he's straight then you're one of the most ignorant person I know."

"What's that supposed to mean." I said raising an eyebrow. I know I may be stubborn. But I'm not ignorant.

"Because Brendon is probably one of the most gay wannabe straight guy anyone has ever met." He said laughing. "I mean- he wears jeans that are made for women, he wears a lavender hoodie for Christ's sake, and have you seen the way he treats you on stage Jesus Ryan wake the fuck up! He wants you." He said still giggling like a retard.

"Whatever can you please just focus on your own shit than mine for once let me figure this out on my own okay?" I leant over and turned up the radio so we couldn't talk anymore. At the corner of my eye I saw Jon shake his head in defeat and continued driving down the twisted road.
I stayed silent the entire time there. Was he really right? Did Bren like me this entire time and I was too oblivious to even notice? I was too busy focusing on my thoughts in no time we were already back at the cabin. Jon honked the horn so Bren and Spence can come and help. I tried to make eye contact with Brendon but he wouldn't have it. He quickly grabbed a bunch of bags, completely ignoring me and headed inside. I looked over at Jon who saw the entire thing and shrugged.

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Brendon's pov

After Ryan said that everything was going to be okay between us again. Turns out it wasn't. He made it worse. I couldn't help but be a little pissed at him for choosing that name for the album. Out of all things this. Now every time I'd even think it hear the name my mind would linger back to the place we almost confessed our feelings to each other. Now we are more apart than we've ever been.
I can't even stand the thought of him at times cause I'm so mad. He tried to talk to me but if ignore him and walk off. He doesn't deserve an answer until he explains why he goes out of his way just to torture me. Later on that night I decided to talk to Pete.