Cabin Fever

Love Is Not A Choice

Ryans's POV
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Keltie decides that we go back to my place. As we pass his apartment, I can't help but glance at his door. Keltie takes my hand, making me look in her direction. Its took me a second to realize I spaced out again.

"Are we going to go inside?" She asks. I fake a smile and unlock the door. Before I knew it, she pinned me to the wall and started to kiss me. I kiss her back but it wasn't the same. He kiss is different her touch is different. She lowers herself to my neck and I cringe away from her. Her smile suddenly falters.

"Let's go to the bedroom." I say clearly trying to ignore the concerned look on her face. Trying to pretend like nothing is wrong. I can't hurt her I can't.
We go to my room and I let her go down to my neck this time. I can't help but try compare her lips to Brendon's. How soft and plump they are. His hands squeezing my hips as he snaps his closer to mine, the way he moans my name when-

"Ryan?" I snap out of my day dream. She looks at me with a serious face, her legs on either side of my torso.

"What?"

"All day. All day Ryan not once did you look into my eyes. Not once did you say you loved me. what is going on?" She says as she swiftly gets off of me and sits at the edge of the bed.

"What do you mean-"

"Us Ryan I mean us." Her shoulders start to shake. Oh god she's crying. I hate it when she she does this but at this point now it would be pointless to lie to her. I didn't say anything.
"I should have known. All those times you said you were busy- I mean you don't even wear the ring anymore" She motions to my finger. Bare. She cuts off due to her sobs. I don't have anything to say. She looks at me again, pulls off the promise ring I gave her a few months ago when I told her she was different than any woman I've ever met.

"Keltie-"

"Tell me and be honest. Just tell me. Is there someone else." Her voice quivers as she gets up facing me now with tear streaked cheeks.

"I didn't want to hurt you-" I try to explain.

"There is no excuse for what you've done. You hurt me Ryan. I cared about you. I trusted you and you cheated on me."

"I've been wanting to tell you for a long ti-"

"Shut up!" She yells, slapping me Tears streaming down her face. I stay silent like she told me to my cheek stinging.
" I tried to love you. I tried to be the best girlfriend I could be. What else am I supposed to do sit here and wait for you while you whore around with other women?"

If only she knew

"But I guess men like you would never be monogamous. God I'm so embarrassed." She throws the ring at my chest and slams the door on her way out. I run my hand through my hair, lightly tugging the edges.
Well damn...if only I'd just told her how I was feeling 30 minutes ago.
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Brendon's POV

I finally follow Jon and Spencer's advice and walk over to his place and talk to him. The sun was setting as I anxiously knocked on his door. He opened the door, a flash of surprise overcame his face but left as soon as it came.

"I brought Fightclub and some takeout. I figured we need to talk." I said sheepishly. I knew he would let me in cause Chuck Palahniuk was his favorite author.

"I don't really want to talk right now Bren." He wasn't mad, just exhausted from what I could tell.

"Good then you could just listen." I push past him food and movie in hand. He follows me to the living room and I set the stuff down on the table. I have him sit down next to me and I start to speak.

"I know what I did earlier today wasn't mature." He didn't respond. All he did was look at me and listen. I continued.
"She's your girlfriend and I should've known what I was getting myself into. Since I don't want to ruin whatever relationship you and I have I'm fine with-" He cuts me off my slamming his lips against mine.
I respond back with mutual interest and kiss him just as hard. His fingers caress the back of my neck and I open my mouth and slips his tongue in. We kiss like this until I'm halfway on top of him. He suddenly pulls away and sits up.

"She left." He whispers. "I was going to tell her but she already knew there was someone else." My heart leaps. He was going to leave her for me? I felt
like a homewrecker but like Jon said I have to take whats mine.

"Are you...okay?" I ask. He smiles.

"Of course I am. Why would I have kissed you in the first place." I smile too. He kisses me again and gets up to put on the movie.

"Fightclub huh? You know me so well." He smirks. I doubt we would be watching any of the movie tonight.
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Ryan's POV

I wanted to feel bad for doing that to Keltie I really do but, how could I not be happy that the only person I truly care about is sleeping next to me. Naked under the sheets. His arm splayed across my torso. His breath blowing onto my chest slowly, his hair slightly covering his eyes, his pouty lips resting on my collar bone. How could anyone not fall in love with this sight? And here he is, all for me. I don't deserve this. I run my fingers through his hair softly. I kiss his forehead. He stirs and pulls me closer and falls back asleep. I stop touching his hair and rest my head upon his and fall asleep.